"And now, born from the ashes she is a warrior in blooded black."

"In a world of emojis, she is calligraphy." - j. iron word

You never know when or where or with whom a "moment" will be created or felt. Sometimes it's just about keeping your mind and heart open to be ABLE to experience such moments and that wonderful sensation of truly feeling "alive". "Magic" can be found anywhere and everywhere, if you but "look" with the heart of a child and never let your inner spark go dark. Your world may not be for everyone, but you are meant for the entire world to see, glimmering and sparkling, and that can only happen if you let your soul FREE of that which might bind it and try to "keep" it. It's the LITTLE things that ultimately make the difference and become the "moments" we realize our life "pivots" on.

Words: © Rosie Chee

Photo by: Rosie Chee

Sometimes God doesn’t change the situation because He’s trying to change your heart.” This really hits home, especially with everything that’s happened in the last quarter. I have to remind myself that “everything for a reason”, even when I am on my knees crying “WHY?! Why could You possibly want me HERE? For what purpose?” I don’t pretend to understand everything God does and why. Sometimes what He asks or wants us to do begs the question “WHY?!” but living on faith means we do trusting that HE knows what He’s doing.

The heart is a strange creature. Mine has almost always been hidden. It’s been locked up tight and guarded, like Sleeping Beauty’s castle surrounded by thorns, so no one gets in [and nothing gets out]. But He slowly started changing me in recent years and I let the determined “creep” their way inside. I let the “spell be broken” and the walls start crumbling down, the thorns gradually disappearing. Even as I kept a guard on watch, for still entry was to be granted only a rare few, albeit the world being able to “see” the tower and that there was a glimmer of light [not always cold] radiating from it.

But the day came when there was great desruction in the tower and the light did not glow as bright. There came a dawn of frost and a sheen of ice layered over the black. The storm passed, but not completely, and the harsh winds and vicious frost cause the ice to linger, even as the tiny flicker of fire inside the tower kept a small portion of it melted. The tower withstood the weather, retreating back away from the world despite remaining in the open, no longer as solitary as it had once been, seeing other towers in the distance, but realizing how isolated it had made itself and that only the truly determined would fight the elements and try to understand the terrain to make their way even to the base of the cliff that it rested upon.

It’s the little things that start adding up. It’s the glimmers of understanding that flicker in and out of view. It’s the moments of clarity amidst the fog that keeps one’s heart going, determined to make it through the storm, even if it doesn’t truly understand WHY. It’s finally realizing that sometimes God ALLOWS the storm and He KEEPS it in place until something INSIDE us changes, until WE start to change, until our HEART begins the transformation. It might take a day, a week, a month, a year, or longer, but He WILL take the time it needs to make the change. He WILL keep the winds blowing, the frost shivering, until that tiny flicker of fire is “fed” and allowed to light and heat more than a single room, shining light from the tower out into the world despite all that is going on around it.

Words: © Rosie Chee

"...don't close your heart...from the possibility and please don't stop believing. hope is a beautiful thing...you're beautiful..." - r.m. drake

“I cannot change the heartbreak, but it has changed me.” – Stacie Martin

Not just there, though any more. My heart here, also calls "home". My soul too, with other souls. It feels peace, in some presence. It can quiet, where once not. Though still rare, it still can. That alone is, all the difference. Yet it does, yearn for this. The ocean waves, the beach beside. To walk along, to hear it. The crashing waves, soul song singing. Feel their mist, upon my skin. Taste salt air, breathe it in. All of it, I miss so. No matter where, I always will. As I miss, ALL called "HOME".

Words: © 2019 Rosie Chee

I'm not perfect and I won't ever be. I am just me, in all my chaos and wild: Gemini child of the moon with a soul of the sea, as fluid and swift in mood changing as the spirit of air, but with heart of endless depth both dark and light as the night. I make no promises but one, and that is no matter what happens, whatever part of me you may see, I will always be real, true to my essence; I know no other way to be.

Words: © 2019 Rosie Chee​

YOU. My soul does. They say that everyone has someone who makes such a difference to them that life becomes distinct in "before" and "after" their entrance into. For me, that someone is you. Who would ever have guessed that the first night we rambled in conversation would turn into a connection so significant that anyone who knows either of us would not argue the change we make to and in each other. You knew before I did, when my heart changed towards you, no longer able to imagine life without, nor wanting to. Not just a smile, but peace being in your presence brings, rare calm to the constant chaos of my mind, and alone with entirely relaxed, as my soul softens into the safe space of you.

Words: © 2019 Rosie Chee

"Soul Tears" on March 16, 2019
captured through early hours of morning
Turned into Words: © Rosie Chee

"Soul Tears" of March 16, 2019

fallen through early hours of morning
Turned into Words: © Rosie Chee

Strength isn’t about power or might. Sometimes strength is simply smiling at another when you don’t “have” a smile or just being there to listen when you’re exhausted and want to do anything but. Strength is not always “seen”, but it is always FELT and you never know who is observing.

You might never know it, but YOU could change someone’s life. You could be the catalyst for them looking into the mirror and searching deep and asking themselves what they truly want out of life. 
You could be the one they look up to and aspire to “be like”, because they see what you do and know a little of your story. You could be a “reason” in their life that inspires them to become BETTER.

It might not seem like you are being strong sometimes, but what is and what is seen are not always the same thing, and people are so very influenced by impressions, even when they come to learn the “truth”, and sometimes the truth makes them take a few steps back and think and “see” more.

When it feels like you have none, draw on Him. There is a never-ending supply of strength and grace waiting for us if we just ask for it. In the times when we don’t feel strong or want to be, then it is time to let His power be the strength we need. Remember, STILL being here, is strength and you never know what that means or “tells” others and the impact that a single ripple can make.

Words: © Rosie Chee

Our lifetime is made up of many journeys. Journeys that make and break us, shape and mould us, past and present determining what we shall become in the future, the most important of all that of our soul, the path to spiritual enlightenment, the metamorphosis of our innermost core as we traverse the journeys of life. Each journey we take in the physical has spiritual ramifications and often affect us far more than what the world can see, turning our souls inside out, upside down, twisting and contorting it until we are not sure we will ever be able to recognize ourselves when we come out the other side of the purging fire.
Each journey we take and every person we cross paths with leaves a footprint on our soul, teaching us valuable lessons and to show us how significant we are in the fabric of the universe. Love and loss, success and tragedy, ecstasy and pain, are all tools of the world to touch us, to create the destiny of our souls, the tumultuous journey that will leave us tempered like the rarest and most beautiful of diamonds, born of the greatest pressure and heat, crushed beyond life itself and shining forth a brilliant light from an indomitable spirit.
With strength and purity of heart we will survive anything, our soul’s journey one that is never-ending, each step one step closer to becoming the highest being and ultimate version of us that we can aspire to.
Words: © Rosie Chee

Your life is NOT yet over. There is STILL air in your lungs, even if sometimes they feel like someone has crushed them beneath the weight of the world. There is still hope in your heart, even if sometimes it feels as if you’re clinging to it by the MEREST of slivers. There is still faith in your soul, even if sometimes you wonder why and ask yourself what you are holding on FOR.

There is still LIFE in your life, even if sometimes you cannot see the way or know what the next step to take is. There are multitudes of POSSIBILITIES swirling around you, just waiting for you to open your eyes to see them for what they are; to see them standing there in front of you wanting you to see them, as you want yourself to be seen.

There IS love out there for you. It might have had folded arms and guarded smiles, but it IS there; as cautious as you because it has been hurt over and over, scars it wears proudly because it still has the courage to believe that it WAS meant for this life, beauty that only another soul who sings the SAME tune can see and appreciate.

Life is FULL of infinite possibilities. Endless opportunities call YOUR name. You could walk in ANY of myriad directions. You could traverse far MORE than one ocean. YOU could live a life of untold wonder and unimagined joy. You just have to SEE it. You have to realize it and understand that it IS there for you. You have to be OPEN to it. You have to step INTO it.

Taking that FIRST step is always the hardest. Walking AWAY from what you know for what you don’t is always apprehensive. Opening up your heart and soul again for something new is always a RISK. But all the risk in the world is WORTH it, because without it, you would never truly know what it is like to be blessed, to live happiness, to experience peace, to grow and evolve, and to REALLY live.

Words: © Rosie Chee

Christmas is already well into back home, but barely just crept into right here. Whether there or here, with loved ones or in solitude, the spirit and significance of Christmas glows just as much as the smile thoughts of those loves cannot help but bring irrespective of presence, and light up energy like the brilliant golds or glistening blues of Christmas lights, beautiful in both summer and winter. Despite experiencing extremes in emotions with events since last Christmas past, being here in this moment, today, still breathing and fighting, means choosing to keep my heart and soul open, allowing such experience to create even more change and embracing new softness that now can be recognized more truly as strength. Taking it day by day, sometimes survived barely by that smile tucked away, even before this Christmas begins leaking sunrise into the world here, I choose to consciously continue allowing love, much like the sun during the day, to grow in strength and power of warmth and light. My wish and hope for all, even as day turns to night and leaves this Christmas behind, is that not only today but every one moving forward, will stay alight with the glow in the spirit of Christmas.


Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee

"Give yourself some credit. You've got a big heart, you've made it through this far, and you are always, always, always stronger than you think." - Brendon Burchard


Image: Rosie Chee

You cannot see it, but beneath the skin there lies a heart so deep it could drown the ocean...you have no idea what this woman has been through...With so much love to give, knowing no other way to be but non-judgmental and unconditional, it has taken more abuse than a heart should, and now it is tired...her mind will not rest, not even for a second, scattered and shattered with more spaces and sights than reasonably existing in any one place...

Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee

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You know what: Life is short. TOO short NOT to chase your heart or take the risk on something or someone you can’t stop thinking about. Who cares what the world might think? It's YOUR heart, your happiness, your future, your POTENTIAL. So let loose your soul to dance in the rain and have companion souls join you, beside you or to their own tune, each of you creating a beautiful melody no one but those who “see” might understand.

If you want it, SAY so. Forget timidity or fear. Put aside "what ifs" and "buts" and set yourself out there where you can be SEEN. Yes, you might be vulnerable, but in vulnerability you open yourself up to an abundance of blessings you might never have thought could be.

You want to let your soul dance? Then LET it dance. And pull those you wish to dance with alongside you, feel the magic in the moment and make it last a lifetime not forgotten. Hold onto the moments granted, for you know not when they might be gifted again.

Life is too short to be spent in hesitation, wondering, wanting but never doing. Before you know it the moment could be gone and you never know if with it your chance for something great or “once in a lifetime”. So, LISTEN to your heart. OPEN up your soul and set it free to DANCE throughout your life with a smile in its step and a glow that spreads light wherever it reaches, rippling through life making the difference that only YOU can make.

Words: © Rosie Chee​

Image: Rosie Chee

You cannot see it, but beneath the skin there lies a heart so deep it could drown the ocean. There is a soul that glows in the right light, even after it has been completely broken, although of late the darkness takes over more than is let known. But you cannot see it. For you have no idea what this woman has been through. All you have are superficial assumptions on everything about her based on how she looks.

You have no idea what makes her smile, or why her smile is the way it is. She smiles even when she feels buried in the dark, struggling to hold on, trying to decide whether her stubbornness to stay is hurting her more than the uncomfortable realization that if she simply disappeared it would likely make no difference. But you know nothing of that. All you see is a smile and to you that means everything is ok.

Her heart has hurt her more than once. With so much love to give, knowing no other way to be but non-judgmental and unconditional, it has taken more abuse than a heart should, and now it is tired. Her head is bowed, if only to rest her eyes for a moment, because her mind will not rest, not even for a second, scattered and shattered with more spaces and sights than reasonably existing in any one place.

Her story is not simple, even though she strives to make her life as simple as possible. Her simplicity is in the beautifully intricate weaving of the openness of her being with all that has wounded her, everyone who has ever crossed her path and the rare moments her soul found peace. Evolutionally ongoing, she is still learning how and trying to heal it all together.

Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee​

The hearts that take the
longest time to let you in
are the most precious.


Know what an honour it is.
Guard it carefully.
Like it was your own.


Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee