June 21, 2018

"Sometimes, you have to be brave and wild, and just say, "Fuck it; I trust myself; let's see what happens."" - Sylvester McNutt

June 19, 2018

"Every man wants a good girl to be bad just for him..."

You bring the bad girl
out in me, something no one
else has ever done.

Words: Haiku © 2018 Rosie Chee

Shallow and superficial are not for me. Smalltalk, while polite, is not what my soul craves. It hungers for truth and tenacity, to dive deep into waters that would scare most. It doesn't matter if I've known you moments or eons, the words that you do or do not speak, can change everything. And in the times when words are not necessary, more important than ever is energy that connects in comfortable and understood silence. Connection is everything.

Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee

June 15, 2018


You're a fighter, like me. You've been through hell and come out the other side, not afraid to walk through the fire. You know who you are and have no fear in being all that is in you, living with purpose because anything else is unimaginable. You're real, authentic "true blue". You've seen the darkest parts of human souls, including your own, and it only makes you stronger, your fire burn brighter, your grit harder and more secure. You are loyal and fierce and refuse to lie down. You're a true warrior, a conscious decision to live life on your own terms no matter what it tries to throw at you. You've known heartache, but happiness too, and hope is not yet gone from your soul. You are energy I find myself drawn to, even if I don't yet understand why.

Words: © Rosie Chee​

June 14, 2018

Just YOU. Nothing else. I think that is all I ever did want. Not what you could give or anything else in your life. Just you. Simply you. I have seen others want you for status or position or possible gain, but none of that matters to me (now or then). All that did - and does - is YOU.

JUST you. The man you [first] showed me, when we are alone. The soul I see that many never will, or would believe if they knew. The energy that collides with my own, creating calm and peace for two that rarely has either. The absolute acceptance of who we are as we are, without any judgment and free to just BE.

There is something simple about it. A haven amidst the complexity the world [tries to and] can make of life. When we are together, it is just you and me, nothing and no one else existing in that space. It is a SAFE place. I trust you, when I trust very few.

It is THAT trust, irrevocable feeling of safety, comingling passionate and primal (controlled) energy, that allowed me to stop pulling back, not run away but toward. I welcome the raw honesty of what we have, even if neither of us can explain just WHAT it is. And that is ok, for not everything needs explaining. Sometimes it is enough for us to simply FEEL what we live.

Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee

June 13, 2018

That "fear" no longer exists. It took a long time to admit, even to myself, that I had feelings. Even after what had happened. What continued to happen, life reiterating through loss after loss, just how unpredictable it was. And while known and accepted, it still took a little time before any "fear" was put aside, following the feelings that could not be ignored either. If anything, time just made them stronger, embraced in both darkness and light. And after these past years there is no doubt of the energy here, strength and depth of emotion and feeling nothing to ever fear.

Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee