"You have to die a few times before you can really live." - Charles Bukowski

Some days she's dark; some days she's light. No matter what, she's always true; she's always her - that you can trust. Her soul is dark with shimmers light, her heart black stained with crimson tears, her mind shattered but always sense. She holds madness in one hand and peace in the other, each as much a part of her as her smile, or tears, or eyes that look through your soul. She can hide with the best of them, assumptions and impressions all the world once knew of her, until she chose to share herself, and in her vulnerability let slip too much, the truth behind the mask now seen: The love behind the distance, empathy behind the cold, pain behind the indifference, an aching beyond the loneliness that she rarely sets free. There is a soul unlike any other, an oxymoron complete, for she is as she is not, a complexity few will - if ever - understand. Both woman and girl, enlightened though innocent and anything but, a soul forever young even as it has lived lifetimes; a Gemini is she, but so much more than can ever be explained by words. She just simply is and will always be. Me.

Words: © Rosie Chee

Photographer: Tony Mitchell

I have no problems sitting with others in their darkness, though I am learning that most cannot sit in MINE. And that is okay; I do not need them to. When you have become more comfortable in darkness than light, your heart starts to see everything differently than it once did. You appreciate more than ever the rare souls who [even if they do not, at least try] to understand the melody of you, and do not run away when that song turns dark.

I know that I have been changing, that song darker than chaos from repressed pain becoming conscious. Yet, still there is no one I would rather be than ME. The superficial shell that houses my soul may be easy for others to want, but I know that the substance of the soul inside is hard for many to understand and accept [let alone love]. So there is no judgment when most run; the softness hidden in that dark is only for those strong enough to handle its truths.

Words: © 2019 Rosie Chee

 

There are infinite possibilities inside you, endless potential that even you might not be aware of. You are an incredible masterpiece, with your own melody and vibrations, a composition no one can ever successfully imitate or copy. There is greatness within and surrounding you and you just need to let yourself BE and LIVE it, no matter the present, because the present is in a constant state of flux and you with it. When you just do YOU and focus on doing what you do best, knowing or not the next step of the journey, your action in faith is the catalyst that sets in motion the process that will bring you to the intended vision. You are part of a vision, an irreplaceable part, one that may not always be seen or recognized, which is ok, because you dance to your own tune and have a rhythm unlike any other, and it is only BECAUSE of your confidence in such knowledge that enables you to be. Believe in the process, trust in the vision, and continue to do what you feel in your soul and know in your heart to be your truth, for everything matters, action and reaction.

Words: © Rosie Chee

It is in our softness that we learn to love, when we take off our armour and let ourselves be seen for the soul within. And those who truly cherish that soul will not seek to break it, but encourage the strength within to be the light that seeps out, so that armour no longer needs to be worn.

Words: [Extract] © Rosie Chee

I'm not perfect and I won't ever be. I am just me, in all my chaos and wild: Gemini child of the moon with a soul of the sea, as fluid and swift in mood changing as the spirit of air, but with heart of endless depth both dark and light as the night. I make no promises but one, and that is no matter what happens, whatever part of me you may see, I will always be real, true to my essence; I know no other way to be.

Words: © 2019 Rosie Chee​

The world opens on a NEW era! A new YEAR!...what has passed has "created" a woman who knows NO limits and will accept NO excuses. She knows what she wants and she has NO fear in pursuing it or casting aside anything that does NOT have purpose. She has been "carved" from more than rock and ice, for there is now emotion and feeling free to roam in her soul, light and love reflected out from her heart, happiness in her being...The darkness has PASSED and the path ahead is bright. She knows where she is going. She can SEE her dreams standing there for her to walk alongside. She smiles as she runs through the light with the true companions in her life, seeking to shine that light across every soul she touches, so that they too might be inspired and hope...Like the sun rising in the "new world", you never know when she will come or what you might see as she rises, but you know that she WILL. With passion she will live her truth, because she knows who and what she IS, having come into FULL awareness of self, not content to let life pass her by, but LIVE it as madly and passionately and wildly as she can in all its potential and glory and wonder, every new experience forging new paths...YOUR time has COME to COMPLETLELY step OUT into the world!

Words: © Rosie Chee

"In every angel a demon hides and in every demon an angel strides."


Images: Rosie Chee

WILD DARK

There was a burning wild inside of her, and the first time she gave up complete control to let run rampant, thrilled her. The thrill enticed excitement, for the wild was Woman, whom she had always denied, choosing instead to mask with the armour of Warrior.

The release of the wild stirred something else inside of her, reckless and dangerous. Surrounded by death, she sought solace in the arms of a twisted angel.

In the darkness, she forsook her tormented soul for the moments of peace it brought, desiring the rare quiet of her mind that accompanied it. She could not have known that what initially began as a distraction from the chaos outside would become an addiction for the chaos inside and awaken the demon that was shadow to her angel.

Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee​

Photographer: Tony Mitchell


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MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY

Sleep eludes, but sometimes in the quiet solitude of darkness there comes truth in our soul. Softly creeping, almost as if not to reopen emotion and wounds desperately trying to be healed, even as the soul tears are crying out to Him to give a new heart. Truth whispers and reminds to boldly chase your dreams, refusing to let another hold power over the heart that acts upon the desires embedded there since forever, because those dreams mean everything and hope is the only thread holding this soul to the world. Let not your unique soul slip away, but reveal and speak itself with daring and such passion that others cannot help but hear the heart hidden, knowing and understanding even the words unspoken. Allow such freedom of soul and self that random is expected, not always knowing what will come even as instinct might, tentatively holding open a fragile cocoon encased with ice and hardness because it still has faith and wants to believe that even if it hurts again, it has to be better than what was. The truth whispers as you've always been, wanting more, asking more, expecting more, knowing what beauty and light have been seen and can be again, strength more than can be imagined but not always needing to be proved, allowing self to simply be. Soul whispers be yourself, simply unapologetically, perfectly imperfect, uniquely beautiful, crazy wonderful, you as you are.

© Rosie Chee