"Sometimes you have to just go away and save yourself." - Sylvester McNutt

"Don't talk yourself out of wanting something, just because you haven't figured out how to get there yet." - Abraham Hicks

 

"Sometimes you have to let your feelings breathe." - perry poetry

"There is something to be said about a person who does not allow negativity to overtake their soul, no matter how many rainy days their heart has known." - j. iron word

Image: Rosie Chee​

Our lifetime is made up of many journeys. Journeys that make and break us, shape and mould us, past and present determining what we shall become in the future, the most important of all that of our soul, the path to spiritual enlightenment, the metamorphosis of our innermost core as we traverse the journeys of life. Each journey we take in the physical has spiritual ramifications and often affect us far more than what the world can see, turning our souls inside out, upside down, twisting and contorting it until we are not sure we will ever be able to recognize ourselves when we come out the other side of the purging fire.
Each journey we take and every person we cross paths with leaves a footprint on our soul, teaching us valuable lessons and to show us how significant we are in the fabric of the universe. Love and loss, success and tragedy, ecstasy and pain, are all tools of the world to touch us, to create the destiny of our souls, the tumultuous journey that will leave us tempered like the rarest and most beautiful of diamonds, born of the greatest pressure and heat, crushed beyond life itself and shining forth a brilliant light from an indomitable spirit.
With strength and purity of heart we will survive anything, our soul’s journey one that is never-ending, each step one step closer to becoming the highest being and ultimate version of us that we can aspire to.
Words: © Rosie Chee

Everything that I have been through up to this point is my PAST. The past is GONE and yes, we are supposed to let it GO. BUT…That does NOT mean that we ever forget it, for it has played an ESSENTIAL role in creating the person we are TODAY. Every experience, every tear, every smile, every heartache, every joy, every person who has entered and left, every sunset and dawn, everything has contributed to our personal and spiritual growth and development. Everything has advanced our MATURITY as an individual and in LIFE. EVERYTHING. There is NOTHING that is insignificant, even though some events stand out as milestones on the path we have traversed.
My past has taught me. It has given and it has taken from me. It has forced me to bend and break and yield. It has caused me to rise and fight and determined strength. It has been a path through plains of drought and fields of plenty, up mountains of struggle and down waterfalls of ease, and through it all, I have been moulded.
My past may have helped “create” me, but it does not DEFINE me. I am NOT my past. I am who I CHOOSE to be. I am what I have chosen to TAKE from my past, what I have ALLOWED to creep inside my soul and reside there, pulling my heart and guiding my mind in its formation of life and purpose.
I can look back on my past and see the steps, the journey, the experiences that have been the biggest “turning points” in my life. I can recognize the PEOPLE who have had the most impact on my soul and created the most development in my being. I can understand that from my SOUL stems my feelings about life, starting unconsciously, until it manifests either in heart or mind, through emotion or vision. I can ACCEPT that EVERYTHING has been a part of my path to AWARENESS, my journey of growth and development.
Everything current and future will eventually too become part of my past, part of my journey, my STORY. Everything that has happened, is happening, or will happen, is IMPORTANT. But not as important as SEEING it as it happens and understanding that not all things in life will shape us in the way we desire, but instead in the way that we NEED, in order for us to become ALL we CAN be.
Words: © Rosie Chee

"I am not looking to escape my darkness, I am learning to love myself there." - Rune Lazuli

Image: Rosie Chee

MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY

Photo by: Rick Koon

Life is short and it is oh so very PRECIOUS. EVERY moment counts and every second matters. Everything you DO has cause and effect. Everything you SAY lingers in a heart or mind or time. Everything you ARE can change the world AROUND you...WORK on making the one YOU live in the way you WANT it to be as much as you can effect and have "power". As you strive to become the BEST you possibly can, encourage OTHERS to their potential alongside you, showing them that there is ALWAYS hope and NOTHING is "impossible"...LIVE life as you strive, ENJOYING the "moments" that will become memories, GRATEFUL for the blessing of those kindred souls who journey with you and have come to mean more than you ever might have thought. As you open your heart and let your soul SMILE allow yourself simply to "be", EMBRACING all that you are and will become, INVITING the future and opportunity for GROWTH, inspiring movement and momentum of vision...EVERYthing has a PURPOSE. Every "chance" is a gift given, a mystery to unravel, a wonder to behold, a blessing to be shared. Every NEW day is another day to unlock potential, change in ways that might have once been unfathomable, experience the amazing in the "normal", make a DIFFERENCE as only YOU can. RECOGNIZE it and take control, even as you let Him "lead", understanding that every day is His gift to you, your "second chance" to live a life of choices that will create positive example to INSPIRE courage and "risk" in others to LIVE their lives as COMPLETELY as possible...

Words: © Rosie Chee

CRIMSON [FIRE] GODDESS


Embrace the fire.
Hell is your purifier,
flames the change
lighting your path,
reforging your heart
through the pain,
crimson stain glow
seeping to gold
weeping through your veins
altering your soul,
perception now enlightened,
your inner goddess awakened,
new power stirred,
strength found and grasped
in the heat
of passion that
sets you alight,
brighter than ever
in this world's darkness.
Darkness and light,
hell and heaven,
death and life,
destruction and growth,
pain and beauty,
you all at once.
Embrace it all.


Words: © Rosie Chee​

Transformation is never easy. But never is anything worth being done. Transformation illuminates the soul, opens the heart, saturates the mind, "reconnects" your "being" as you "become". More. Better. Different. Changed. Awakened. Transformed. From the inside out. It will show. You will know. You will be more "you" than ever before. And that is beautiful. Wonderful. Glorious. Magnificent. Amazing. Blessed. You are. By Him. Give thanks and embrace the change, the challenge, the "coming". It will be worth it. You'll see. Believe. Trust the process. Transform.


Words: © Rosie Chee

Sometimes shattering who we were is the only way to discover who we truly are and what we are capable of. It's not just about being destroyed, but about seeing the beauty in the destruction, embracing the fall and unconsciously creating ourselves so that when we hit the bottom there is no doubt that what will be rebuilt will be nothing like what was. Even if not every shattered piece is part of the new creation and those that are form different art because of how they now fit together, what eventually stands, though it might be unrecognizable to some, will be and is nothing but truth, stronger despite vulnerability, beauty in the broken, light cast through the cracks, illuminating the soul inside. Evolution. Art. Inspired.


Words: © Rosie Chee​

Photographer: Carley Patmythes

THE GEMINI WOMAN

The Gemini woman smiles as she falls apart. You hurt her and she moves on; she forgives, but she never forgets, and once her trust has been torn, it may as well be broken, because very few broken things in her world ever get mended, and she does not bother to fix many of them, having the attitude that some things are better broken than together. No matter how precious that trust once was to her, she will do her best to try and forget, even if she can’t, only because if she always remembers she allows it power to destroy her all over again; even as she appears strong and invulnerable to the world, her demeanour a mask of coldness and strength, her heart an icy stronghold that does not seem to have any holes in it, her mind closed with a passion of fury, even as icy and fury are nothing close to what is truly going on inside her. She will smile when she looks at you, take part in life with you, but there are tears in her soul, falling with every painful smile, every look in your eyes, every word she speaks, knowing that you do not know and do not want to know and will never know, just having your own perspective on who she is and why she does what she does. She knows that people do not want to know the truth of another’s soul and so she is a chameleon for every person that crosses her path, a different creature for every man, even as every face she shows is an aspect of her and not a genuine mask, for she is a woman with many personalities, like a diamond in how multifaceted she is; but also like a diamond, albeit rough at times, in how she appears and comes across, for not everyone will see her sparkle and shine, but only glimpse the promise of the beauty that she could be.

Words: © Rosie Chee

So this is how it is going to be (after everything). I know it has been rough and I empathize, I truly do, my heart bleeds with you and hurts as if I too were that going through. But I have been struggling as well (not that you notice or care if you have, and that is ok, I am used to it), dealing with my own darkness and demons, trying to ignore the sting of backhandedness and feelings of betrayal. And if this is the face of your friendship and "loyalty" when I choose to make a stand (and refuse to let myself be taken advantage of because I understand), I am actually kind of glad I am the only one I have ever really had. It makes me sad to know such truth, but better sooner than later, and not to push away the feelings, squash them down as I have done in the past. Better to face them head on and deal with it, the way I have become accustomed to dealing with everything, (falling or flying or learning fast how the fuck not to completely crash and crumble into the nothing I have often felt like being). No matter the destruction, despite all darkness and odds, I continue to go on, broken and bloody wreck if I must, even if no one "sees" beyond the superficial smile or hears the screams of my soul. It makes me thankful for my wings, not angel white but demon black, and the strength that they have learnt to harness and carry, knowing I am not what I become in the darkness to survive (even if it reveals more depths of me to myself), and that when the light eventually finds them, no one and nothing will ever be able to "steal" or bind them again. I will make sure of that, this I promise.

Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee​

Image: j.iron word

The highs, then lows, before the depths, the falling... seemingly endless falling... through the darkness, a vortex of black, not knowing when it will stop, or even if there is a bottom to be reached... a recurring dream since childhood, where you are just falling and falling and falling, through time and the black... BUT... It is just a dream, even as it is not a dream, and all dreams eventually come to an end, when we open our eyes, when we awaken... when we still ourselves enough to come back to our soul to see the blur between dream and nightmare and know both are the same, just different perspective of energy and vision... AND... we know that we can fall up too, maybe not as fast as we fall down, but we can, and we do... and we will rise past everything that we have seen or known as we fell, to a place beyond the point where we fell from... SO... keep going, my friend, dark to night, until night becomes day, that day turns to light... for the strength of your heart to hold onto hope, no matter the circumstances, is a light on its own, and you never know what difference it might make to who or where in your dark... keep a hold on your heart, for your soul, for its power.


Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee

Our challenges and struggles help determine our committment and strength. They show us depths of us that might not have been reached if we were not forced to dive into ourselves and seek out something to get us through. During them we learn what we can be truly capable of, both dark and light, and choose how we will fight. There are those who find comfort in and draw power from the darkness, but burn as bright as any fiery beacon for the rest of the world. There are demons and angels, but the greatest warrior of all is one who is BOTH. No one but you may ever know the full truth of your personal battles, but know that eventually, whether drawn by light of your fire or because you have no fear of venturing into the darkness, you will find others that understand the war you fight. The heart of the fire, even in the dark, still smoulders, remember that. Remember that.

Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee

BLACK ANGEL

She is an angel, but her wings are not white. They are black from the soot of all the fires she has burned in, stained with the ashes she has risen from. She is an angel not because she was born that way, but because of how she became. The wings on her back, deliberately designed and crafted through intense pain, each flinch felt through her soul as she gritted her teeth and tried not to let it show. They call her an angel, but she sees herself not that way, for she just did what she had to do to survive. She is an angel, but her wings are not white.

© 2018 Rosie Chee