Face yourself. Face the world. Love. Risk. Accept and approve of yourself. Allow only positive energy to engage and surround you. Be the example. Make a difference.

Words: © Rosie Chee

"You don't need anyone's permission to love who you want to love, and to create what you want to create, and to show up how you want to show up. Live how you want to live... and then lovingly tell the world to shove it. They will deal... Give yourself the freedom of a big, brave, authentic life..." - Kristin Lohr

"You are limitless. The only limits you have are the ones you put on yourself."

HOLY HELL! Today marks the 10-year anniversary of the date I first ever set foot in the States. Then I never imagined that I would STILL be here (or in and out, as have been). If I thought a lot happened in my first five years here, I had NO idea of how much MORE my life would change! More than lifetimes have passed, especially over the last 2-3 years. Anyone who knew the Rosie of 10 years ago would not even believe the woman who exists now is the same person! But, I have become more me than I have ever been, gone through so much than I ever thought possible to survive and are still here, experiencing things I once never thought could ever be for me, opening up and embracing and stepping into everything inside of me, that has been stripped back to the core to reveal and "be". 10 years ago, even five, I had no fathoming of still being here, let alone that I would have come to call somewhere (and someone) "home". It has been the most ecstatic and soul wrenching lifetime of all, and it is not yet over. My life has indeed (more than once) been "completely shaken up, changed, and rearranged" and I know it is far from over. But, I am prepared. I am ready. I am "evolutions" of lifetimes culminated into what became the eventual emergence and birth of my "Goddess" in this last lifetime and season just been. And She is still changing, still learning, still "becoming", on a path rare few still could or would understand, but that is ok. It is OK. I will be ok. I AM.

Words: © 2019 Rosie Chee

"The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it and enjoy the dance." - Alan W. Watts

"You have to die a few times before you can really live." - Charles Bukowski

"The trick is to enjoy your days. Don't wish away your days, waiting for better ones ahead." - Marjorie Pay Hinckley

"I can let my guard down with you. I don't do that with anyone else. You make me vulnerable. And, maybe that's ok." - Detective Chloe Decker, Lucifer: St. Lucifer (S1 E11)

"I want to spend my life with you, even if it scares me." - Marcus, "Always Be My Maybe"

"Embrace uncertainty. Some of the best chapters in life won't have a title until much later." - Bob Goff

"...cherish the present, because tomorrow might never come to pass..." - Claire Randall, Outlander: Sassenach (S1 E1)

"And today you did nothing except exist and for that I am truly grateful. For your existence. You matter to me. You are important to me. And, you don't know how truly beautiful you are just by merely existing. Thank you for being here." - N.R. Hart

"We are riding the pendulum of some massive density waves that are moving us through layers and layers of duality.. Welcome to Gemini season... Fluctuating moods, up and down, back and forth. One day fine, then wildly not... We get to see the extremes so that we can remember where our center is, it's all a swirl of truth and information in there, but our PEACE is the center of our storm.. This is going to be one hell of a month as we move toward the Solstice... Take a deep breath and regroup, in every minute if you have to...we are walking through some thin slips between dimensions...another big wave prompting you to open your heart...get out of your linear brain where you are making yourself nuts with OVERTHINKING, and get into your heart and reassure yourself who the fuck you are."

"Our childlike self is the deepest level of our being. It is who we really are and what is real doesn't go away. The truth doesn't stop being the truth just because we're not looking at it." - Marianne Williamson

You never know when or where or with whom a "moment" will be created or felt. Sometimes it's just about keeping your mind and heart open to be ABLE to experience such moments and that wonderful sensation of truly feeling "alive". "Magic" can be found anywhere and everywhere, if you but "look" with the heart of a child and never let your inner spark go dark. Your world may not be for everyone, but you are meant for the entire world to see, glimmering and sparkling, and that can only happen if you let your soul FREE of that which might bind it and try to "keep" it. It's the LITTLE things that ultimately make the difference and become the "moments" we realize our life "pivots" on.

Words: © Rosie Chee

Photo by: Rosie Chee

Sometimes God doesn’t change the situation because He’s trying to change your heart.” This really hits home, especially with everything that’s happened in the last quarter. I have to remind myself that “everything for a reason”, even when I am on my knees crying “WHY?! Why could You possibly want me HERE? For what purpose?” I don’t pretend to understand everything God does and why. Sometimes what He asks or wants us to do begs the question “WHY?!” but living on faith means we do trusting that HE knows what He’s doing.

The heart is a strange creature. Mine has almost always been hidden. It’s been locked up tight and guarded, like Sleeping Beauty’s castle surrounded by thorns, so no one gets in [and nothing gets out]. But He slowly started changing me in recent years and I let the determined “creep” their way inside. I let the “spell be broken” and the walls start crumbling down, the thorns gradually disappearing. Even as I kept a guard on watch, for still entry was to be granted only a rare few, albeit the world being able to “see” the tower and that there was a glimmer of light [not always cold] radiating from it.

But the day came when there was great desruction in the tower and the light did not glow as bright. There came a dawn of frost and a sheen of ice layered over the black. The storm passed, but not completely, and the harsh winds and vicious frost cause the ice to linger, even as the tiny flicker of fire inside the tower kept a small portion of it melted. The tower withstood the weather, retreating back away from the world despite remaining in the open, no longer as solitary as it had once been, seeing other towers in the distance, but realizing how isolated it had made itself and that only the truly determined would fight the elements and try to understand the terrain to make their way even to the base of the cliff that it rested upon.

It’s the little things that start adding up. It’s the glimmers of understanding that flicker in and out of view. It’s the moments of clarity amidst the fog that keeps one’s heart going, determined to make it through the storm, even if it doesn’t truly understand WHY. It’s finally realizing that sometimes God ALLOWS the storm and He KEEPS it in place until something INSIDE us changes, until WE start to change, until our HEART begins the transformation. It might take a day, a week, a month, a year, or longer, but He WILL take the time it needs to make the change. He WILL keep the winds blowing, the frost shivering, until that tiny flicker of fire is “fed” and allowed to light and heat more than a single room, shining light from the tower out into the world despite all that is going on around it.

Words: © Rosie Chee

"...don't close your heart...from the possibility and please don't stop believing. hope is a beautiful thing...you're beautiful..." - r.m. drake

“I cannot change the heartbreak, but it has changed me.” – Stacie Martin