MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY

UNEXPECTED LIGHT

There shines a light in EVERY soul. Sometimes we do not see it within ourselves. But others do and they make mention. Yet sometimes that light can become dark and needs to be relit. In those times the light shining in OTHERS can “respark” our own and see us glow again.

Light can be found in the most UNEXPECTED of places. Sometimes where we might never have thought it could come from. Surprising us with the magnitude of which that light can shine. Yet sometimes that light can become a source of comfort and looked forward to. In those times simply accept where you are at this moment and just ENJOY the warmth of the embers being stoked back to strength.

Light and dark. Sometimes we do not realize which of our “selves” we let the world see. We do not realize when we sparkle so brightly or darken the heavens. Yet sometimes we are more aware than ever of the effect we have. In those times we come into a “soul awakening” and once aware we can never become UNaware.

When your soul has been “woken” from its slumber life begins to OPEN up. YOU begin to see how every aspect of light and dark affects you and those around you. You begin to understand the IMPACT you can have on another soul. You begin to take CONTROL as much as you possibly can over yourself and your reactions to the world. You live CONSCIOUSLY. You seek to make every aspect of your being and the world around you as “healthy” as possible and encourage GROWTH in all areas.

Sometimes it is the most unexpected of lights that can ILLUMINATE the “darkness” in our lives and aid in bringing us to the CONSCIOUS awareness of “self”. Always be thankful.

© 2014 Rosie Chee

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ADVERSITY

Adversity, hardships, obstacles, when life kicks you down so low you don’t know how long it will take you to stand – that’s when you see the TRUE measure of a person. That’s when you see their real CHARACTER. For when the sun goes into hiding, if there is no true light in one’s soul, all that will be seen will be the darkness seeping out from them. When the winds fare not well on the ocean of life, then shall the temperament kept locked down in the hold of their soul be unleashed.

When you come across adversity, you discover things about yourself. Some might surprise you, even for those pure in heart, for they are not what you thought you were capable of. Some do not, for the true soul, the one who is not afraid to live transparently, has nothing to hide from those who would seek to thrown stones at glass castles.

When you stand against adversity, you pull deep down to the core. You find strength you might have never had to use before. You find courage to use that strength. You find a hardness that would never have become otherwise. You find that your soul has much more capacity to love and forgive than you ever thought possible for you. You find different dreams hiding in the crevices of your heart.

When you face adversity, you become so much MORE than you are. You come through the fires of hell with any excesses burnt away, so that all that is left standing is the true creature that you are. You come away with greater knowledge of your soul and all that you are willing to do, understanding better than ever that which has become dearest to your heart.

When you look adversity head on, you can know that it is nothing more than another of life’s tests, a game meant to break you down to your essence, so that you can know what you have. You can know what is at your foundation. It destroys so that you can rebuild – into the person you have potential and were always MEANT to be.

© Rosie Chee

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EDGE OF DIFFICULTY

Sometimes in our lives it seems like one thing after another – if it’s not pain it’s conflict and if not conflict then another intense emotion, and so on. Sometimes it seems like there is no “calm” and only “storm”, one difficulty after another, obstacles that challenge us when we might feel that we’ve already reached the limit of what we can handle at this moment. Sometimes it can be hard to remember that He is guiding our paths and to trust that He knows what He’s doing.

But we must – trust. Trust that He knows what He has to do to us in order to make us stronger. To make us fully aware and capable of all that He truly wants in our lives. To give us the courage and determination to never ever “settle” or “lie down” and fight for what is ours and “right”. To push us so that we have to acknowledge that we are but human and cannot do this on our own strength and ask Him for HIS, knowing how futile was our own capacity the last time we tried and fell and almost broke as we did.

Trust can be so hard – knowing what your trust has “given” before. But He is not like the world and in Him your trust is NOT misplaced. Even when it seems that He ignores you, when your faith can be even more tested and trust questioned, He is not, because sometimes He wants you to learn from what is transpiring, whether to take the risk to spread your wings and fly, no matter how tentatively, or realize that He is the source of your strength and power.

If you cannot fly – if you keep trying and fall time and again, plummeting further each time it seems than the last attempt, when your soul despairs so close to “giving up”, that’s when you just need to learn to let go and let GOD. You might dream recurring of falling in endless black since childhood, and sometimes yes, you may have “hit the bottom”, and in life you may feel like you can and have fallen too far to be saved, but He can and WILL catch you before your final resolution.

It takes a lot of courage to trust – even a little, let alone completely. But we must hold onto faith and believe as we do all that WE can in facing what faces us and trust that HE will do His part as we do ours. It is a partnership relationship that sometimes you might feel you can give less than you receive, but in doing even what you can and placing your trust in His hands, you are allowing something much MORE to happen and can create much more than you might ever fathom.

© 2014 Rosie Chee

MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY

CHNAGE IS

Change can be a scary thing. It can also be an exhirilating feeling. It can open up your life to amazing opportunities never offered it before. It can take you into the UNknown.

The unknown can cause a sense of FEAR. Fear of what is to come and what it will mean; of failing expectation placed on you by yourself and others; of falling too far down that you might not be able to pick yourself back up. Fear is a natural response to change, but you do not have to let it control you or the decisions you face and make.

Change is a big thing. It can mean many things to different people, but more often than not, it means walking down ANOTHER path than the one you were traveling on. It means trusting in your instinct, in your soul and heart and dreams, having faith in something greater than yourself that this new path is one that will only enrich your life in ways you cannot yet imagine.

Change means GROWTH. Without opening yourself up to it you do not give your soul a chance to grow and “evolve”, and if you always stay where you are, your life will become stagnant and stale, and then you are no longer living but merely existing, which is no life at all. Change brings new life into your own; new people who spark something in you that might never have been sparked by anyone else; new dreams to embrace and build upon; second chances to live the way you always wanted to and be the person you were always meant to be.

Change, whilst initially “scary”, is nothing but wonderful, especially when you reflect and see the path you have trodden, what has brought you to this place and the life that awaits; beautiful because He has gifted you with such opportunity to grow into the butterfly you have potential within yourself to be, and soar to heights of GREATNESS.

© Rosie Chee

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THE DREAMS THAT BREAK US

We ALL have dreams. And we all decide, consciously or not, whether we pursue those dreams.

Some follow their hearts and have their dreams torn from their chests while their hearts are still beating. Others never dare to even contemplate the reality of their dream coming to pass. Who is the richer individual do you think? The person who dared or the one who didn’t?

The person who dared follow their heart had a glimpse of happiness from chasing that closest to their heart and being able to hold it if even for only a short while, of joy from knowing that they are better from having made the journey and becoming stronger, of fulfilment in knowing that they had the courage to put themselves out there and just go after what they wanted, daring to risk rejection or ridicule, the possibility of failure or falling short of their goal, feeling that fear but doing it anyway, because NOT knowing what it was like to pursue their dreams would be a fate worse than death.

The person who had not the courage to even DARE to dream the dream that is in their heart looks at the world with cynical eyes from shattered illusions that have taken away their ability to see the hope, sadness in their heart from knowing that they are potentially taking away and limiting someone else’s happiness and ability for growth, regret in their soul from always knowing what might have been and never knowing if it COULD have been, because they were too afraid to take the risk and dare to TRY, those dreams eking away at them inside, the pain of never knowing killing them a little more each day.

Would you rather experience the feeling of satisfaction and knowing that you did everything POSSIBLE to make your dreams a reality, LIVING life as it was meant to be lived, lifted up to the most imaginable heights, no matter how short it may have lasted; or would you rather experience a loss that will break your soul into a million tiny pieces because you can glimpse hope of the truth, but do not dare cross the line that could take that truth from a dream to a living, breathing miracle?

Are you the one who tried or the one who didn’t? The one who can look in the mirror and like what they see, or the one who cannot bear to see their reflection because they are ashamed of their inaction? The one whose soul, whether it falls or not, has seen inside heaven, or the one who has and will only ever know hell? The broken one who knows that they LIVED before breaking, or the broken one who never even tried to get up off the ground?

We all have dreams. Life is FULL of dreams. Many realized, but also sadly, MORE that are never even a brief contemplation, cast aside from fear.

It’s not what we DO that we will forever regret, but what we do NOT dare to do, what we hope for but do not dare to DREAM. Can YOU live with that?

Remember, life is meant to be LIVED, experienced in ALL its GLORY. How can you do that if you do not even DARE?

© Rosie Chee

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AFTER ALL YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH...

The tears and pain and sacrifice. The sleepless nights and days spent in exhaustion. The masked smiles to hide the truth. The not knowing and confusion and frustration.  The hoping and holding onto the faith. The belief in something better all keeping you tethered here. After all that…

It’s something you want more than ANYthing else in the world. It’s something that made you feel ALIVE before it tore you to pieces. It’s something that gave you a new sense of direction. It’s something that you NEVER want to let go of. It’s something your life will always have missing if it is gone. It’s the CLOSEST thing in the world to your heart. After everything that has happened…

Don’t you DARE give up on it! You’ve come this far. You’ve been to hell and back more times than you can count. Remember all the reasons you determined to stay true to this, your soul. Remember what it feels like to be in that place of unimaginable happiness. You know what COULD be, so DON’T just know, but MAKE it be! After all you’ve been through…

You’ve let it build you up and destroy you, and every time you get STRONGER. You’re NOT a quitter. You’ll fight for it with EVERYthing you are because when you have the hope, the promise, of something you have wanted all your life, you do NOT just give up on it and quit! YOU FIGHT FOR IT! AND NEVER LET GO! Because you know it’s WORTH it!

© Rosie Chee

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RELEASE

Sometimes we need to have discussions with others because they may ask questions we do not consider, view aspects we do not realize as “important”, seeing us and the world through “fresh” eyes and a change in perspective. I had a conversation a few days ago that caused reflection; a question asked that made me sit back and think because I had never considered it before. Why is it that we can “not” do certain things when they seem so simple? What is “preventing” us from doing it? What is “blocking” the “flow” of action and ease of interaction with not just others [at times] but also with ourselves?

What IS it that is holding you BACK [no matter the area of your life]? You might need to search deep to find the answers; it might be uncomfortable and difficult and there could be inner turmoil as you struggle with your demons in the darkness and depths that have to be ventured into, but when you find those answers life will become much EASIER. You need to be OPEN to what you find, understanding that the answers may not be what you thought; perhaps an issue you never even realized was an issue or something long thought resolved. Whatever it is, you need to “see” and KNOW it with your ESSENCE.

To do that you have to uncover whatever it is that is holding you back, do more than “discover” it, because that is just the first step of the process; you need to not just “see” it but UNDERSTAND it and truly KNOW in and with everything that you are, because only when you do that can you ultimately RELEASE it. When you release and “let go” of it you can then “speak” far MORE than words. When you speak “knowledge” from your CORE and not just from your mind, you are one step CLOSER to being able to walk and live the life you want [and need].

You OWE it to yourself to take that step; to stop and reflect and ask yourself the “hard” questions you might not have wanted to ask or not known until now to ask; to search BELOW the surface of what “appears” to be to what truly IS; to understand and get to know yourself on a level you might have never known before. When you are in true alignment with your soul you need not doubt, but simply act, because everything else becomes simpler; life becomes simpler, because you know what you need to do and have NO hesitation or unconscious inhibitions in doing it.

© 2014 Rosie Chee

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THE SPIRITUAL JOURNEY

[Him aside] only YOU know what is truly best for you. Others can tell you what you “should” feel or be and that it’ll be “ok” in the end. All very well and good, but there is NO “should” and sometimes the “end” is an endless journey that stretches on with heartache after heartache and darkness after darkness and epiphany after epiphany, constantly changing and moving, living as much as you.

What was “best” for someone else in a similar situation or having experienced such emotion is NOT always going to be best for YOU. Highly likely that it won’t even be CLOSE to what is “best” for you. Others can SHARE their experiences and offer advice, but ultimately it is simply a source of “support” and guidance, because nothing and no one can truly tell you “how” it “should” be.

Your soul might seem like a contradiction in the feelings buried deep within it and the emotion visible [to those with discernment] on the surface, but it has its own way of processing everything and it must be allowed to without “forcing” from anything or anyone. In its time, which no one can set, it will “sort” through the chaos to “find” the centre again.

There is no “right” or “wrong” way when it comes to soul evolution. Soul awakening is a painful realization and the journey does not end at the start, but merely begins, and there is only ONE way for YOUR soul and that is its OWN. Follow the whispers from INSIDE and “find” your own truth in the chambers that illuminate your essence.

© 2014 Rosie Chee

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NO SHORTCUTS

Life is TOUGH. It HURTS. It lets you achieve the pinnacle of “success” and then it kicks you down a cliffside faster than you can think. That’s life. Get used to it.

Get used to it. But DON’T accept it. DON’T let it beat you so much that you give up trying altogether. Don’t let it take away the ESSENCE of you and the spark that keeps you going and burning bright for others to see.

Life is tough BECAUSE it is PREPARING you. For what is to COME. It has to make sure that the you that eventually reaches the destination intended is a you that can LIVE there. It has to make sure that you have what it TAKES to live the life you want and achieve the dreams in your heart. It has to make sure that you’re STRONG enough to look fear in the face and release courage despite any and all odds.

The journey may be long AND hard. But without the journey the destination would not hold as much MEANING. It would not be APPRECIATED for the sacrifices required and the work that it took to get there. It would not see a soul that had been tested by fire and trialled through destruction come out as a “brand new” being capable of the ultimate AWARENESS of self and its world. It would not see a soul who understands that the true desires and dreams of the heart are worth EVERYTHING endured to get there.

Shortcuts create DEFECTS. Life wants to make sure that there are no defects in the “end creation” that steps into its final place of realized PERFECTION. It wants to make sure that the soul that holds its dreams in the palm of its hand is one who KNOWS the explicit emotion of having experienced the world through more than a looking glass. It wants that soul to see the DUALITY in everything and understand just what it takes to stand on the top of the world and look out over it. It wants a soul who knows its darkness and light and CHOOSES to live its truth in light.

© 2014 Rosie Chee

MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY

BE YOURSELF

Sleep eludes, but sometimes in the quiet solitude of darkness there comes truth in our soul. Softly creeping, almost as if not to reopen emotion and wounds desperately trying to be healed, even as the soul tears are crying out to Him to give a new heart. Truth whispers and reminds to boldly chase your dreams, refusing to let another hold power over the heart that acts upon the desires embedded there since forever, because those dreams mean everything and hope is the only thread holding this soul to the world. Let not your unique soul slip away, but reveal and speak itself with daring and such passion that others cannot help but hear the heart hidden, knowing and understanding even the words unspoken. Allow such freedom of soul and self that random is expected, not always knowing what will come even as instinct might, tentatively holding open a fragile cocoon encased with ice and hardness because it still has faith and wants to believe that even if it hurts again, it has to be better than what was. The truth whispers as you've always been, wanting more, asking more, expecting more, knowing what beauty and light have been seen and can be again, strength more than can be imagined but not always needing to be proved, allowing self to simply be. Soul whispers be yourself, simply unapologetically, perfectly imperfect, uniquely beautiful, crazy wonderful, you as you are.

© 2014 Rosie Chee



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SOUL JOURNEY

Our lifetime is made up of many journeys. Journeys that make and break us, shape and mould us, past and present determining what we shall become in the future, the most important of all that of our soul, the path to spiritual enlightenment, the metamorphosis of our innermost core as we traverse the journeys of life. Each journey we take in the physical has spiritual ramifications and often affect us far more than what the world can see, turning our souls inside out, upside down, twisting and contorting it until we are not sure we will ever be able to recognize ourselves when we come out the other side of the purging fire.

Each journey we take and every person we cross paths with leaves a footprint on our soul, teaching us valuable lessons and to show us how significant we are in the fabric of the universe. Love and loss, success and tragedy, ecstasy and pain, are all tools of the world to touch us, to create the destiny of our souls, the tumultuous journey that will leave us tempered like the rarest and most beautiful of diamonds, born of the greatest pressure and heat, crushed beyond life itself and shining forth a brilliant light from an indomitable spirit.

With strength and purity of heart we will survive anything, our soul’s journey one that is never-ending, each step one step closer to becoming the highest being and ultimate version of us that we can aspire to.

© Rosie Chee

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PATH TO "BECOMING"

Everything that I have been through up to this point is my PAST. The past is GONE and yes, we are supposed to let it GO. BUT…That does NOT mean that we ever forget it, for it has played an ESSENTIAL role in creating the person we are TODAY. Every experience, every tear, every smile, every heartache, every joy, every person who has entered and left, every sunset and dawn, everything has contributed to our personal and spiritual growth and development. Everything has advanced our MATURITY as an individual and in LIFE. EVERYTHING. There is NOTHING that is insignificant, even though some events stand out as milestones on the path we have traversed.

My past has taught me. It has given and it has taken from me. It has forced me to bend and break and yield. It has caused me to rise and fight and determined strength. It has been a path through plains of drought and fields of plenty, up mountains of struggle and down waterfalls of ease, and through it all, I have been moulded.

My past may have helped “create” me, but it does not DEFINE me. I am NOT my past. I am who I CHOOSE to be. I am what I have chosen to TAKE from my past, what I have ALLOWED to creep inside my soul and reside there, pulling my heart and guiding my mind in its formation of life and purpose.

I can look back on my past and see the steps, the journey, the experiences that have been the biggest “turning points” in my life. I can recognize the PEOPLE who have had the most impact on my soul and created the most development in my being. I can understand that from my SOUL stems my feelings about life, starting unconsciously, until it manifests either in heart or mind, through emotion or vision. I can ACCEPT that EVERYTHING has been a part of my path to AWARENESS, my journey of growth and development.

Everything current and future will eventually too become part of my past, part of my journey, my STORY. Everything that has happened, is happening, or will happen, is IMPORTANT. But not as important as SEEING it as it happens and understanding that not all things in life will shape us in the way we desire, but instead in the way that we NEED, in order for us to become ALL we CAN be.

© Rosie Chee

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UNDER CONSTRUCTION

You’ve “remade” yourself more times than you can count. You’ve sculpted your body numerous ways over the years as goals and priorities change. You’ve transformed yourself like a chameleon. And now you’re about to do it AGAIN…

It’s a new season. The perfect time to “reinvent” yourself in the model that you want to be, the version of you that will best REPRESENT you in the days ahead, the example that you want to give and BE to the world. Today starts a NEW day, a new week, a new SEASON. It is your chance to start “over” and create the you that you want to be and see. It is your time to get it “right”, with no falling off the trail or veering from the path to another destination other than the one you have set yourself.

The signs in the road you’re walking on say “under construction”. It is true of life and it is true of YOU. From this day forward YOU are UNDER CONSTRUCTION, piece by piece, one step at a time, minute inspection of the being you are and calculating the length of time to the endpoint in your mind. It is time to put up the mental signs to keep you “on track”, pull out the demolishing equipment, and whittling away the parts of you that have NO place in your future.

It’s not just your BODY under construction, but your MIND as well. The way you think, how you perceive the world and that which is in it, your place and role in life, exploring the ULTIMATE version of you inside AND out, so that, come the end of the season (or however long it takes you to build your masterpiece), you are everything you WANT to be. And then some…

Your new body is under construction. Your soul is undertaking the hardest journey of all in making the mental parallel of that physical “transformation”. YOU are beginning from the very start the life and you that you always dreamed of being and are MEANT to be.

© Rosie Chee

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IMPERFECTLY BEAUTIFUL

Life is never going to be “perfect”. There are always going to be perfect MOMENTS in a world that is in destruction. There is always going to be BEAUTY in the deep dark ugliness of a world that is becoming more dangerous by the day. There is always going to be LOVE amidst the hate that seems to surround some. And it is that love that we should HOLD onto. It is the love we should focus ON. It is the love that we should see as beautiful in an imperfect world, making it “perfect” for the moments frozen in time in your mind as memories that cannot and will not ever fade away, no matter how long passes.

The world is never going to be “perfect”. No one IN it is ever going to be perfect. But there CAN be someone who is “perfect” for YOU. There IS someone who fits the other half of your soul like they were the piece of a puzzle you were in; the piece you never even knew was missing until they came along. There is someone who UNDERSTANDS your soul and loves you for who you ARE, not what you can do or give or be, or any potential to come (even though they will always PUSH you to your potential, because they only want to see you become all that you CAN be), but for who you are, deep down in the most inner sanctum of your soul that no one but they ever get to see. That IS beauty in a world that will always sit beauty alongside the beast.

Life, the world, people, AND you, will always be IMperfect. But that does not mean that it cannot be “perfect” in pieces, that there cannot be beauty in the imperfection, that it cannot be a place where HAPPINESS resides inside your soul. Perfect moments will always exist in an imperfect world. Looking for the moment creates spontaneity. Freezing the moment captures the memory. Getting lost in the moment is LIVING it. And life is meant to be lived, and lived to the FULL, as best we can, as we LOVE.

© Rosie Chee

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YOUR HEART

“Sometimes God doesn’t change the situation because He’s trying to change your heart.” This really hits home, especially with everything that’s happened in the last quarter. I have to remind myself that “everything for a reason”, even when I am on my knees crying “WHY?! Why could You possibly want me HERE? For what purpose?” I don’t pretend to understand everything God does and why. Sometimes what He asks or wants us to do begs the question “WHY?!” but living on faith means we do trusting that HE knows what He’s doing.

The heart is a strange creature. Mine has almost always been hidden. It’s been locked up tight and guarded, like Sleeping Beauty’s castle surrounded by thorns, so no one gets in [and nothing gets out]. But He slowly started changing me in recent years and I let the determined “creep” their way inside. I let the “spell be broken” and the walls start crumbling down, the thorns gradually disappearing. Even as I kept a guard on watch, for still entry was to be granted only a rare few, albeit the world being able to “see” the tower and that there was a glimmer of light [not always cold] radiating from it.

But the day came when there was great destruction in the tower and the light did not glow as bright. There came a dawn of frost and a sheen of ice layered over the black. The storm passed, but not completely, and the harsh winds and vicious frost cause the ice to linger, even as the tiny flicker of fire inside the tower kept a small portion of it melted. The tower withstood the weather, retreating back away from the world despite remaining in the open, no longer as solitary as it had once been, seeing other towers in the distance, but realizing how isolated it had made itself and that only the truly determined would fight the elements and try to understand the terrain to make their way even to the base of the cliff that it rested upon.

It’s the little things that start adding up. It’s the glimmers of understanding that flicker in and out of view. It’s the moments of clarity amidst the fog that keeps one’s heart going, determined to make it through the storm, even if it doesn’t truly understand WHY. It’s finally realizing that sometimes God ALLOWS the storm and He KEEPS it in place until something INSIDE us changes, until WE start to change, until our HEART begins the transformation. It might take a day, a week, a month, a year, or longer, but He WILL take the time it needs to make the change. He WILL keep the winds blowing, the frost shivering, until that tiny flicker of fire is “fed” and allowed to light and heat more than a single room, shining light from the tower out into the world despite all that is going on around it.

© 2014 Rosie Chee

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TODAY

Last year I wrote on dreams – the ones in our heart and soul that give us something to “live for” and then the ones that we LIVED. It has been a long year and I have watched my dreams [sometimes] be almost the only threads holding me here, some given only to be cruelly snatched away, some change with time, and some stay unwavering, as others that had started to peek out returned to slumber.

Dreams can be so much, yes, but they can also take away as well, and we have to be careful what dreams we allow to dwell in our hearts and rest on our souls, for in the end those dreams are the ones that “become” us, as we merge everything we are into them. Dreams can destroy us or they can create us, forge a demon or angel.

Life itself is indeed a “dream”, but in a dream we can only act in the moment. Today that moment is now – it is called “today”. Yesterday is an opportunity gone and if not taken, might be lost forever, and tomorrow is an opportunity not yet come and might not come to pass, so you have to make the most of TODAY and the opportunity presented TODAY.

You can seek solace in memories or you can build castles on future aspirations. Better yet, you can give yourself into the action of creating and living a dream - YOUR dream, NOW, TODAY, in the present moment, allowing your soul to be open to the possibilities waiting, your heart [cautiously] open to those knocking, your mind open to something that might have been considered unentertainable in the past.

Time changes our souls, and when our souls change, so do our hearts and minds. A year is such a short period and this last one has gone by so fast that I still remember this day last year like it was yesterday, even as it has also been a lifetime that has aged my soul far more than the simple span of a year, to the point of where I wonder if I will recognize myself in another year.

But, whatever comes, whatever happens, who and what I have to face to fight for my right and worth in this world, I know that the decisions I make TODAY will play their part in determining tomorrow, and that tomorrow is uncertain, so while what might be might be, I will be grateful for the blessings I have TODAY, acknowledging and accepting the love and life, as I keep my faith and believe for my future.

© 2013 Rosie Chee

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REBORN

Sometimes we need to die in order to know what it truly means to live. Sometimes we need to forget our lives before and just let ourselves live in the now. Sometimes we need to break down the walls of everything we were and create a new being. Sometimes we must experience the greatest happiness and have it torn from us and suffer, so that we can see the truth in the destruction and pain, and give ourselves a real chance to make our world right with a brand new beginning.

Dying does not always mean leaving everything you were behind. You will never be completely different, even as you are not the same person that entered the flames. Dying means burning away the weakness and developing the strength, finding new strength and sharpening the edges of the resolve that helped you survive so long. The difference will be in what the world sees, their eyes suddenly open as realization that you have always been what you said you were, but now you will not hide any part of it.

Dying is valuing yourself enough to take a stand, to admit you’re not invincible, not infallible, not a machine, and knowing when enough is enough and it’s time to start taking care of you, instead of just always pushing through and taking on so much you know there will eventually come a breaking point. Dying is reaching that breaking point and letting it go. It is letting yourself be broken, but not accepting such a state, putting yourself back together with wisdom alongside strength, so it does not happen again.

Dying means letting go of anything that might have held you back. It is finding complete acceptance in all that you are, all aspects of light and dark in your soul and now, instead of the darkness keeping you alive, choosing to let your light be the source of what keeps you going. It is embracing the woman who has long hidden inside the warrior’s armour, letting your heart be seen even as you still keep it locked up and only precious few inside, those rare true souls who truly cherish and understand it.

Dying is making one sacrifice for another. The sacrifice you make though you know will be worth it, for each evolution of you tears away the layers that were once a cold, emotionless machine who chose to be a rock island in the world, revealing the true heart that has been buried so deep for so long, breathing new life into it. Terminator to Warrior to Angel, saved by grace and reborn by fire, stronger and wiser and finding the beauty in the beast, walking forward without looking back.

© 2013 Rosie Chee

MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY

BLOOMED AND BECOME

Love is something I always shunned and scorned, never wanted for myself (at least, never admitted to myself or anyone else), seeing the heartache it created, not wanting the hurt and pain that seemed inevitable in every “example” of it I saw. Not that I was afraid per se, although when you spend a lifetime building walls around your heart to guard yourself from hurt, that would indicate some “fear” (at least, to those that perceive), but I saw it as weakness and did not want weakness. But sometimes allowing the very things that you are “afraid” of are ultimately what you “need” to set your soul FREE.

So I took the chance. I stopped “fighting” what was happening and just LET it happen. And in that I experienced happiness greater than any I ever thought I might, dreams in my heart that had never dared raise their head for fear of being extinguished on the spot suddenly revealed. Letting love in was a beautiful thing, aspects of myself that I would not have otherwise let be seen exposed to the world, those in my life watching me bloom and blossom in ways that they would never have believed without seeing it for themselves.

But in welcoming the love, I also opened myself up to the hurt and pain I had seen so many times before. I made myself vulnerable in caring about something more than life itself. Love was a weakness that made me open to attack, to destruction that would likely never have had the opportunity to be wrought before. Yet, (and not without great struggle), I accepted that vulnerability, allowing the love to change me, knowing that nothing about such a blessing was ever intended NOT to create unfathomable change in a soul, even if the ways in which that change would eventuate and close would not be all beautiful.

I loved. I bloomed. For a time I held heaven in my hands, and then the inevitable crashing of the world that had been built on dreams and faith and hope and love took the light that had begun to glow so brightly. And in the dark more change occurred as a different strength that might never have been sought or manifested before emerged, grace allowing forgiveness without complete understanding, and the broken  rising to stand tall and proud. For to “become” I needed BOTH light and dark to fully comprehend what was and had been, that light needed not always reason to sparkle and the me required in this world.

© 2013 Rosie Chee

MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY

BELIEVE

Believe in your soul that He only wants the BEST for you. Believe in your heart that dreams DO come true. Believe in your mind that you have only just BEGUN your journey to happiness. Believe with your eyes what a GIFT has been given you.

Believe and never stop believing that GOOD things DO happen. Miracles ARE real and they are EVERY day. He only wants to BLESS you with what you deserve. To TRANSFORM your soul so that you are ready to become the person you were intended to be. The person who will change the world where you are, little by little, piece by piece, touching the lives of those around you, to make what different you CAN.

Believe in your soul that you are destined for GREATNESS. Believe in your heart that you CAN achieve anything you want. Believe in your mind that such joy as you desire is NOT out of reach. Believe with your eyes that the one standing before you is REAL.

Believe in the DREAM you find yourself walking in. Life CAN be a fairy tale is you open yourself up to the possibility. ANYthing is possible for the one who believes with everything they are, giving all they have, willing to step out one more time on the glass ledge and risk that they hold most precious. For NOT to risk is to potentially miss out on the greatest blessing that He ever intended for you to have.

Believe. ONE simple word. So much FAITH. BELIEVE and NEVER stop!

© Rosie Chee

MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY

DEAR GOD, THANK YOU

For what has BEEN – I might not have completely understood it at the time, but I do now, knowing it was NECESSARY to bring me to this point. For the experiences given – without which my soul would not have been changed that my heart would be able to be open enough to share, and in the sharing be able to touch lives in ways I might not have been able to before, making room for more difference to be made and a hand that would never before have been offered to be given. For the intertwining threads – the souls allowed to touch mine have marked me far more than they will ever know, impacted me more than anyone might ever see, created strength that can be sensed by those who have known me, changed me in both beauty and pain but ultimately for the BETTER.

For transforming my SOUL – I will always be what I was, but not what I was as I move FORWARD through life, living and learning, the old ways of survival still would work but now not what I want to use, knowing their weaknesses and taking only their strengths with me into the future I am walking into; having fallen and risen, broken and rebuilding, lived and died and been reborn for the second time, an even newer and wiser creature emerging from the flames, not the Terminator I started out as or the Warrior I became, but an Angel of neither white or black; standing alone but not alone, the integral fundamentals unchanged even as everything is changed.

For EVERYTHING that is – TRANSFORMING my soul as it needed and needs to be, so that I can be everything that I need and should be, so that I can do and be everything I am meant to; all of it for Your glory, proof that prayers do get answered and miracles do exist, the lost can be found and the hardest of hearts made soft, walls can be broken down and ice can be melted, blank masks can become genuine smiles as life continues and opens up before me; stepping forward in faith across the invisible bridge over the chasm below.

© 2013 Rosie Chee