MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY
Pursuit of Happiness
Happiness can be something that eludes us - until we realize that there
is NO destination to being happy, that everything we have to “be”
happy is WITHIN us, if we but ALLOW it to be. The simple thought of
someone special, a memory, a smile, something that makes us laugh - all
of those things release the happy inside, allow us to let down the
walls that we build around ourselves for the briefest of moments.
Happiness is a CHOICE. Life can be falling apart around you, the worst
possible situation you can think of you find yourself in, and you can
STILL find the happiness lurking in the shadows - it IS there, even if
it IS hiding in the depths of your soul, in a place you would never
have imagined it to be.
EVERY day we make the choice - conscious or not - on whether or not we
will be happy. Happiness is not just a choice, but a state of MIND, and
even if our heart is breaking, our soul is distressed, we can still
make the choice to look for the positive in the negative, at what IS
going right in our world, and be thankful that we are still alive to
appreciate the beauty that we have in our lives.
Quote for Reflection:
TRAINING
Day OFF
Yes, I know that I had Monday off, but I am also going to allow today to
be off, as it was scheduled. Really has been THREE days "off" this week
(since yesterday was not much and at the very start of the day), and I
think my body has NEEDED it - THIS is the "Week Off" that is has been
"begging" for over the last couple of weeks. So now that is has had it,
it's time to return to being ME!
OTHER NOTES
Sleep: Woke after ~9 hours and then went back to sleep for ~3 more, making an excessive ~12 hours of sleep.
Mood: Interesting.
Energy: Fatigued.
Stress: HIGH.
Body Composition: 9.6% bodyfat at 120.8 pounds - lost 0.4% bodyfat over
the last week, which is interesting given that I [really] only did four
days of training (maybe the time off helped some, given that my body
hasn't had a break in 28 weeks and even last week, which was deemed an
"easy" week still was reasonably active) and my eating was only good for
a single day this week. That said, the second half of the week I
started back on Erase, Alpha-T2, and Shred Matrix, and yes, whilst
supplements are not to be predominantly relied on, just indicates a
little how much difference these make to me personally (EVERYTHING
should ALWAYS be taken on a case-by-case basis, especially since
everyone is different - this is just an example of my body chemistry and
history). I am so uncomfortable in my own skin, little but disgust for
what I see and feel - the only GOOD thing about it right now is that my
delts and arms are symmetrical re girths, the biggest that they have
ever been, with the most muscle mass that they have ever had. I HAVE to
lean and "slender" back down to what IS comfortable re body composition
and size - keeping my delts and arms as big as possible (they're the
ONLY areas of my body I want and do not mind muscle growth).
Overall Sense of Feeling: Whether it has "looked" like it or not, I've
slowly been destroying myself with a lot of things over the last ~8
weeks and it's time to STOP - with my schedule so full the next few
months, more destruction is NOT conducive, desired, or allowed. Training
is going to go back to being as intense and hard as I can possibly make
it - likely to change some things though, since my shoulders are really
causing major issues right now. Eating is going to become CLEAN and
"good" - the two times in the last 18 months when I have NOT followed my
16-hour fast/8-hour feeding window I have done a lot of damage to my
body, and all it has done is solidify to me that this is the best
nutritional protocol for my body re meal timing (IN that 8-hour feeding
window I've never had an issue eating what I want and it not affecting
my body composition too much, but eating ALL the time, even if it is a
similar caloric intake has done some SERIOUS damage). The onus is all on
ME and I accept full responsibility for the damage I've done - it's
time for ACTION and coming out of the darkness with a vengeance, to use
what I've learnt and discovered to give myself the opportunity to grow
even more and become BETTER OVERALL.
Other Notes: I am going to continue posting my Motivationals daily, but
updates are likely to become weekly reports re progress and everything
else henceforth.
