Change is intended to create and cultivate GROWTH creating circumstances which force you to reevaluate your life, so that you can see and let go of whatever might hold you back. Often, whether we are consciously aware of it or not, or want to admit it to ourselves, FEAR is one of those things: Fear of becoming even more vulnerable or letting it be known, of leaving a "comfort zone" because it may be the only thing familiar to us, even if we are very uncomfortable there and want a "way out", but being honest with ourselves that we have no idea of what to do or where to go next.
Growth IS uncomfortable and can make you vulnerable, because it is often made in the most intense situations which place us in a position where NOT reaching out to another may cause further devastation, but it is a huge step because trust can be so thin because of experiences preceding the "turning point" of honesty with yourself about what is happening. It takes a lot of courage to confide in another soul, especially when your history has almost always been alone or loyalty betrayed, but sometimes people DO surprise you and you may find more than just a glimmer of hope if you risk taking that uncertain step.
Risk can sometimes be the test of whether or not we are truly ready to move FORWARD, for without it, taking that step, making a decision that we have absolutely no idea where it will take us, there may never be real opportunity for growth. Sometimes we HAVE to take that first step of trust to begin to "see our way again", blurry as it may be, because it means we want to move forward no matter the cost, knowing that anything is better than merely existing like we have felt became a way for a while.
Even if you have almost always "traveled" alone, there are times when it is better for your own wellbeing, and essential for your increasing enlightenment, to welcome the company of another soul beside your own. And not just for you, but for that soul too, it may mean the first step in their journey of courage and risk, desiring to break free from all that keeps them immobilized, willing to let go of any and all fear, to begin the process of truly LIVING again.
Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee
