June 5, 2012

2012 | Day 154: There's so much you don't know about my soul



The things that are going to make the MOST change in your life are the things that are going to be the HARDEST to do. They’re also going to require the most RISK and cause the most HEARTACHE. They will fill your heart with happiness, whilst at the same time dripping tears down your soul. It might be hard to LET GO, but it is HARDER to hold onto something that is not meant to be. Life is meant for LIVING, so even if it means saying GOOD-BYE to something you love more than life itself, to HEAL your soul sometimes you MUST.

If you have to, cry yourself to sleep at night and put on a SMILE for everyone in the morning, so that they don’t know any different, and go about your life in a way that MAKES a DIFFERENCE in others’ lives. It hurts when the one you love the most loves you back, but is too afraid to take the risk you would give your life for in a heartbeat, and sometimes the only way to hide that pain is to do your best to help ease the pain of OTHERS.

It may not make any SENSE, but in the end the pieces will all come together for you to see the BIGGER picture, and everything will be CLEARER than ever. You might NOT want to do it, but you might HAVE to, in order to prevent regret from letting the pain of it all stop you from living as you were MEANT to, depriving your LIGHT and INFLUENCE from the world. Do not let your hurts prevent you from helping heal the hurts of others.

Do not let your pain cloud your heart and shut all POSSIBILITY out. Do not think that it is over, because there is so much MORE out there for you, so much BEAUTY, so many BLESSINGS, so much more than you could ever have IMAGINED, all just WAITING for you to open your arms and EMBRACE it, ACCEPT it, and just let it HAPPEN.

Quote for Reflection:


Skip x 300 revolutions

Arms/Abs (30 sec recovery between supersets and trisets):
SuperSet -
1. Swissball Crunches (270 degrees to 180 degrees) 4 x 25
2. Skip 4 x 300 revolutions
TriSet A -
3. EZ-Bar Bicep Curls 4 x 21s
4. Dips 4 x 6
5. Skip 4 x 300 revolutions
TriSet B -
6. Incline DB Bicep Curls 4 x 10
7. DB Hammer Curls 4 x 6
8. Skip 4 x 300 revolutions

Post-Weights Cardio:
Recline Bike 20 min @ 103-107 rpm

Stretch 20 min


Sleep: Maybe an hour or two - could not for the life of me sleep last night/this morning; too much going on in my head, even though I desperately wanted to just turn my mind OFF. Went to bed, got up, went back to bed again, watched a movie, got up, and went back yet again, finally in and out between 0800-1000, but hearing everything going on around me. Throat feels like it is closing over, head has a migraine from hell, and I got told as soon as I walked out "your face is all puffed up" (as if I couldn't already feel and know it). So, not the best of mornings to "get up" to, but determined not to let that dictate my day!

Energy: Actually had THREE servings of Assault today (and used the last of my last tub of the original formula) - time passed very fast and definitely didn't feel like TWO hours in the gym! Energy was smooth and clean, almost as if in slow motion - no jitters or crash.

Quality of Training: Changed things up a little today - still the same amount of time re resistance training, but a little more "cardio" in it. Blanking out a little during bits of it, but just kept on going, almost as if in a dream, from one thing to another. Definition in arms was great - one thing high-high carbohydrates does is help with that (and pump and vascularity - in general everything, and I have been told I do better overall with such)...Legs definitely feel better with the lower rpm re post-weights cardio on the Recline Bike - spinning, but not spinning as fast does them more good...