Not just today. But EVERY day. I think of you... It's a strange
feeling, missing someone. Missing someTHING. Alien for someone who has spent
lifetimes alone by choice. And now you - you changed all that. I am not sure
what to think. All I know is that it means I am changing. Somehow, something
about you triggered something in me. And I do not know if I am fighting myself
or not. All I know is that I am struggling with feeling. Struggling, while at
the same time strangely okay with it, such is the conflict. I am no stranger to
conflict, least of all from my own inner chaos, though that at least I am at
peace with. But with you - I am not sure if it is you or the newness of the
feelings you have disturbed in me causing this.
Words: © 2019 Rosie Chee
Words: © 2019 Rosie Chee