MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY
THE THREADS IN YOUR SOUL
Just when you finally muster the courage and WILLINGNESS to open your soul to another, the one who started as a reason but grew to become a lifetime and who you thought gone forever reappears and turns your world upside down, bringing joy and hope, but also immeasurable pain and confusion, because even though you made your peace with it and let go, how you felt never changed even as EVERYthing changed. It is NOT fair on you, nor on the one you have started to open your heart to, but no one ever said life was fair and we must play the hand we are dealt as the cards appear.
Life is a tangled web and we must simply try to live it as BEST we can, untangling the threads twining through, in and over and under our own. Every thread ADDS something to your life, whether through love or loss, colour or black and white, each giving you an experience you will never forget, even the smallest of impressions changing something in your soul. Sometimes that change is MORE than you ever realize until you are suddenly aware of it, and when you are, can become a change so noticeable to the world that its effect ripples through your thread in others’ lives.
You have a choice: The love that made your soul so happy for the first time in forever and changed you in ways you could never imagine, but then destroyed you so completely you wanted to die and never be able to feel again, almost fading from existence without hope. Or the sweet promise of the new bud blooming in your soul, offering the appreciation and care that your life has been missing since forever, making you feel and want to be alive again; the glimpse of true happiness seen once before no longer an illusion but something tangible, tugging at your heart right there in front of you.
Life is a test we are all given, choices we all have to make, and you have only just been able to make your peace with letting that first soul-soaring, heart-wrenching love go. It has taken time, but you have dared to risk opening your heart again, not wanting to let go of the dream that was hidden for so long now brought to light, even if you know that it is a seed that may never break through the surface of life. You have come so far, TOO far to go back, and you do NOT want to go back from the darkness you escaped from; only to move FORWARD with your life, stepping into the new.
Time has a way of deceiving us, thinking we have it when we do not, so we canNOT waste the time we are given when we have it. We cannot go back and expect it to be as it was because it never will be, for everything has changed, especially this soul that has been through so much, broken and battered, but stronger for it, knowing what it must do, the path it must take, the decision that will change everything from here on out. It has taken all that time, all that experience, love and loss, ecstasy and pain, but your soul HAS been OPENED and it must STAY that way, each thread a brilliant gleam or soft glow tangled with your own.
© 2012 Rosie Chee
