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September 11, 2011

Day 254: Remember, remember...


WORDS FOR THE DAY

I was just saying earlier to Sean how ironic it is that last night/this morning we sat through the entire anime series and movie Eden of the East, given what happened today in history.

"Today is a difficult day. The memories are painful and some wounds may never heal. I pray You will help me and the ones left to go on living for truth, firm in our hope of Your salvation. Help us not to question why, yet even if we do, give us courage to continue to trust You. Help us take the comfort and strength You've poured into our lives and use it to comfort and strengthen all who need hope." - Gina Ostarly
TRAINING

It's been another difficult week back in training, but I am getting there, battling through, determined to get back to "normal" as soon as possible. My left wrist is much weaker than it was the last time I fractured it, but I have faith that I will be able to get it back to where it was and surpass it, just like I did when I started training again last time.

Training completed this week (4 sets for each exercise):

Shoulders/Hamstrings (1 min recovery between sets):
1. Behind-the-neck BB Military Press- for some reason, this angle re hand/wrist placement cause the least pain of most exercises
2. Hammer Raises - doing this because front press hurts wrist so much that drop weight after only a rep
3. Lateral Raises
4. Stiff-Legged BB Deadlift (BB to touch ground)

Arms/Abs (1 min recovery between sets):
1. EZ-Bar Biceps Curls (21s)
2. Dips - REALLY struggling here, barely able to complete even 3 reps before "collapsing" on left side
3. Alternate Hammer Curls
4. Rope Crunches - 100 reps in total only

Chest/Back (1 min recovery between sets):
1. Push-Ups (hands on fists) - really having to "set" wrists to grit through the pain
2. Seated Supinated Lat Pull-Down - hand position "pulling" at left wrist, leaving a heavy ache after each set
3. Incline BB Bench Press
4. Reverse Rows (feet on bench)

Abs (no recovery between supersets):
Superset -
1. Rope Crunch - 100 reps in total only
2. Plank (1 min hold)

Next week, I am going to go back to my usual period of time for all resistance sessions and add my Full-Body session back in on Friday, and see how it goes - if I struggle, that's fine, but at least I will have made the effort!

OTHER NOTES

I didn't notice it so much last time, but this time around, my right side "carrying" my left has made a considerable difference in my girths. My right arm and thigh are now a full inch LARGER than my left arm and thigh - my right arm is usually ~1 cm larger, but never as extreme as an inch before. Not being able to lift heavy or train as usual has continued to affect my body, with more loss re muscle mass in my deltoids and a little more in arms, despite body mass remaining fairly constant.

Still no supplements aside from barely even the basic staples, and at the end of next week, I will only be left using Vitamin C, BCAAs, and MuscleGel Shots. I am considering starting Battlefuel (which I've had sitting here waiting to be used for a few months now) tomorrow, since it's been a while since I ran out of Erase (and haven't received any more), likely until I get more Erase (I cannot stress how much of a difference this makes to how I look and feel) or have used a bottle of Battlefuel.

Even though I am still not able to train as usual for me and my body has changed (my delts, which I worked so hard to build up and cap, have diminished considerably), I am still looking at competing in October - the competition is now only seven weeks away, which means that I need to work as hard as possible to get into competition shape by the end of September (as best as I can, praying and hoping for no more muscle loss). I will also start practicing my posing again after resistance training, to make sure that I at least have an improvement there from last year.

Remember, there is nothing we can do now about what has been, but we CAN make the most of the present and do the best we can NOW with what we have!

God Bless and keep you all Safe!

May 5, 2011

Day 125: If you kick me down, I will only get back up STRONGER!

MOTIVATIONAL QUOTE OF THE DAY

"Circumstances may cause interruptions and delays, but never lose sight of your goal. Prepare yourself in every way you can by increasing your knowledge and adding to your experience, so that you can make the most of opportunity when it occurs." - Mario Andretti


TRAINING

Cardio - CrossRamp:
10 min @ R10/CR10

Upper Body (30 sec recovery between alternate sets):
Alternate Set A -
1. DB Clean and Press 6 x 15
2. DB Lateral Raises 6 x 15-20
Alternate Set B -
3. Push-Ups (feet on floor, hands on step) 6 x 15
4. Supinated BB Bent Over Rows 6 x 15
Alternate Set C -
5. Seated DB Shoulder Press 6 x 15
6. Seated DB Rear Raises 6 x 15
Alternate Set D -
7. V-Bar Tricep Push-Downs 6 x 15
8. Alternate DB Bicep Curls 6 x 15 per side

Post-Weights Cardio - Rollers:
10 min in 39x18 @ 106 rpm

Stretch 25 min.


COMMENTS

Mood/Aggression: I have been through myriad moods today, covering the entire range of the emotion and mood spectrums. Beautiful things are happening in the world (life is a blessing), at the same time as the most horrific and ugly (please pray for all who live with the daily threat of war, and give thanks when those we care for wake up unharmed after being bombed). Life is in constant balance, a battle. Doesn't it realize though, that every time it kicks me down, I am just going to get back up, stronger than I was and come back fighting HARDER than ever?!

Energy: After the events that occurred before training, my aggression was spiked, and I went into the gym with a purpose, starting out well, but faltering after ~40 minutes, only my drive pushing me through the rest. I just feel shattered now.

Stress: HIGH.

Joints: My superio-medial right knee was still aching when I woke up this morning and has niggles at me throughout the day, but it's not affecting my functionality.

Endurance: Great.

Pump: Strong and HARD and lasting a LONG time.

Vascularity: The BEST ever during training! I want that ALL the time!

Quality of Training: It was a brief, fast spiel on the CrossRamp pre-weights, aggression and determination driving me . . . Resistance session started out well. Talk about PAIN. For some reason, the pain started pissing me off - as well as all the kids running around in the weights room (I have nothing against people taking youth in there to train, teaching them correctly, etc., but when they are running around rampant, getting in the way and adding to irritability, it's another story). LOVED the definition and vascularity I had during training - both which appeared almost from the start. For some reason, I was also REALLY heated re temperature throughout the session, so much that it seriously felt like the fans were blowing HOT air on me! After the first set of Seated DB Shoulder Press, I was ready to pack it in and just finish this session tomorrow. However, I sat there and stuck it out. I was almost in tears by the end of Alternate Set C - not a usual thing for me, and during Alternate Set D my face was a mask of pain and grit (some guy even deliberately walked in front of me and waved several times, as if trying to distract me or maybe elicit a smile - didn't work). 90 minutes of what ended up feeling more like torture than pleasure, but it was done and I am glad I stuck it out. After all, giving in or giving up is NOT an option, and I am NOT letting them win! . . . Brief cardio on the rollers afterwards, just enough to make it a total of 20 minutes re cardio for today . . .

Recovery: I think the extreme flux of emotion and mood throughout today has affected my energy and feeling more than training itself - although my deltoids and biceps' tendons ARE in pain if I lift anything.

Other Notes: Sometimes we seek opportunities out. Sometimes they are given to us. Sometimes what we want is not what we NEED. Sometimes the favourable opportunities presented to us are not so favourable. God is testing both my faith and my heart, seeing how much trust I have in being driven, pulling away the layers to see the truth of my passions, the core of my dreams. Under scrutiny, beneath the surface of one chance I have been given, comes the realization that if I accept, it means compromising my character and who I am, giving up my dream and stepping away from my purpose, only to become the tool of another. Even though I initially pursued this opportunity, I know now that it is not for me. I know who I am and I will NOT give that up. I have my dreams and I will NOT give them away. I understand my purpose and I will NOT stray from that. Sometimes He gives us what we want, so that we can see that it is not in our best interests. Sometimes doing nothing IS doing something. It's a daily surrender, having faith that what is best for me He knows, and will reveal it when I am READY, guiding me in the direction I need to be and should be going.