Day 270: If I am to be in Hell, let it be of MY Making!

Training

Cardio - Stepper:
20 min @ 10 floors/min

Gym - Full-Body (30 sec recovery between alternate sets):
Alternate Set A -
1. BB Romanian Deadlifts (on 6" box, BB to touch feet) 8 x 12
2. Bench Step-Ups 8 x 12 per side
Alternate Set B -
3. Flat BB Bench Press 8 x 12
4. Close-Grip V-Bar Seated Row 8 x 12
Alternate Set C -
5. DB Shoulder Press 8 x 12
6. Incline DB Rear Raises 8 x 12
Alternate Set D -
7. V-Bar Tricep Push-Downs 8 x 12
8. Alternate DB Bicep Curls 8 x 15 per side
Alternate Set E -
9. Weighted V-Sits 8 x 15
10. Bicycle (on bench) 8 x 12 per side

Post-Weights Cardio - Treadmill:
7 x 2 min @ 12.8 km/hr / 1 min recovery

Posing/T-Walk Practice 15 min.

Stretch 20 min.

PM Cardio 20 min.

PM Posing Practice 10 min.

Comments

Sleep - Time and Quality: ~4 hours.

Mood/Aggression: Up and down, and training didn't make it much better today.

Energy: After today's training, I did NOT sleep (although I wanted to), have worked a fast-paced night shift, done some more cardio post-work, and my day is not going to be over for at least another 2-3 hours, before a 0630 hours start again tomorrow . . .

Mental Focus and Clarity: So there.

Metabolism: Fine.

Stress: What do YOU think?!

Libido: High - but too shattered to act on it today.

Endurance: Doesn't get any better than this - and considering I do ALL my training on an EMPTY stomach FIRST THING, certainly not what most could handle.

Strength: My weights are at ~50-60% of what I would normally be lifting for these reps - not my proudest moments - and I have to keep reminding myself that my training is still INTENSE, regardless of how pathetic my numbers are.

Pump: Was ok.

Vascularity: Kicked in during all cardio, calmed down, and then back again from Alternate Set C onwards, staying strong for the rest of the day.

Quality of Training: I had a smile on my face during pre-weights cardio . . . Soon disappeared into a scowl, though. If I thought yesterday was long, think again! Today's resistance session was OVER TWO hours! I have not done a session like that in ~7 years (and then it was only long because I was having 2-5 minute recovery periods - back when I was competitively cycling)! I started out flushed and rosy-cheeked, my eyes bright, and by the end of Alternate Set A, my face was ashen and my eyes looked like hollows in my face. About now was the time I wanted to just say fcuk it and walk out, but I pushed myself to keep going, despite the screaming body and just being over it already . . . To top it off, I RAN for Post-Weights Cardio - when I was shattered and shouldn't have been able to walk, let alone do running EFFORTS! . . . Was a little shaky during Posing Practice - understandably. Walked SLOWLY and sorely home . . . Even though I didn't want to, did PM Cardio - albeit not very fast - when I got home from work, and then forced some Posing Practice afterwards . . .

Recovery: My LOWER body aches.

Body Composition and Look: I still have a belly. Waist to knees is now a problem area - never used to be - and I am starting to HATE my body more than I already do (sigh).

Day 269: Marching on the Fifth Circle of Hell

Training

HIIT Cardio:
a. 4 min jogging
b. 8 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy / 1 min recovery
c. 8 min jogging

Stretch 10 min.

Gym - Full-Body (30 sec recovery between alternate sets):
Alternate Set A -
1. BB Good Mornings 8 x 12
2. Side-to-side Plyometric Bench Jumps 8 x 24
Alternate Set B -
3. Push-Ups (feet on bench, hands on DB) 8 x 10
4. BB Bent Over Rows 8 x 12
Alternate Set C -
5. BB Military Press 8 x 10
6. DB Lateral Raises 8 x 12
Alternate Set D -
7. Dips 8 x 10
8. DB Bicep Curls 8 x 12
Alternate Set E -
9. Rope Crunch 8 x 10
10. Hanging Straight-Leg Raises (hips to 90 degree flexion) 8 x 10

Post-Weights Cardio - Stepper:
20 min @ 10 floors/min

Posing/T-Walk Practice 15 min.

PM Cardio 20 min.

PM Posing Practice 10 min.

Stretch 10 min.

Comments

Mood/Aggression: Determined to make a dent in this bodyfat!!!

Energy: After training I felt like passing out, but didn't, and had work for several hours, before forcing a pm cardio session.

Mental Focus and Clarity: There.

Stress: I don't need to paint a picture.

Libido: HIGH.

Endurance: Unbelievable!

Pump: Wasn't actually that great today - only for about half of the resistance session.

Vascularity: Started happening during Alternate Set C . . . Noticed them darker throughout the day . . .

Quality of Training: HIIT was fine - a little different than usual, but changing it up to give my body a bit of a shock . . . Resistance session was ~100 minutes! Longest ever! Added in two more sets per alternate set from last week. And the next two days are going to be just as long - if I wasn't doing this competition and determined to beat my body into the ground, I'd be stopping after 45-50 minutes! . . . Post-Weights Cardio was a blur . . . Posing Practice is just getting frustrating. Practiced with my hair down today - needs to have more body to it - to get used to it . . . PM Cardio was easy - needs to be HARDER . . .

Recovery: Fine . . It's not going to be in a few days, though . . .

Body Composition and Look: NOT happy with it at all!

Other Notes: Stopping NeoVar Recomped use for this week, but sticking with the rest of my supplements.

Day 229: Remodeling the Machine

Training

HIIT Cardio:
a. 4 min jogging
b. 4 x 20 sec effort/40 sec recovery
c. 4 min jogging

Gym - Shoulders (30 sec recovery between alternate sets):
Alternate Set A -
1. Behind-the-Neck BB Military Press 4 x 12, 10, 8, 6
2. DB Lateral Raises 4 x 12
Alternate Set B -
3. BB Military Press 4 x 12, 10, 8, 10
4. DB Bent Over Rear Raises 4 x 8
Alternate Set C -
5. DB Shoulder Press 4 x 8
6. Hanging Straight-Leg Raises (toes to touch bar) 4 x 8

Post-Weights Cardio - Stepper:
20 min @ 8 floors/min

Stretch 20 min.

PM Cardio 20 min.

Comments

Sleep - Time and Quality: Nearly a solid 12 hours!!!

Mood/Aggression: I feel slightly better knowing WHY I have been feeling the way I have - not so great knowing WHAT it is . . . I wonder if God is up there laughing at me?

Energy: It was an effort to get through training to be sure, but the energy is there - it's just about tapping into it and knowing I CAN do it!

Stimulant Effects: None.

Mental Focus and Clarity: My mind NEVER turns off - how's that?!

Metabolism: Interesting.

Appetite: The thought of eating is highly UNappealing right now, especially considering the unpleasant effects that occur after every time I eat, regardless of what or how much (or little) I eat . . . BC+EAA is probably the more important supplement I use right now, and it's going to become even MORE essential to my nutrition than ever from now on . . .

Stress: I am a highly stressed individual by nature, and need it to function properly, but there comes a time when the stress experienced becomes DETRIMENTAL to operations . . .

Libido: Some.

Endurance: Good.

Strength: Better than it was last week for this session.

Pump: Right anterior delt was PAINFUL - sometimes this even affects the session.

Vascularity: Better than it has been during resistance training . . .

Quality of Training: HIIT was even more maximum effort than usual - if that's even possible. I literally had to stop after every effort, that's how hard I was pushing myself, and it took the entire 40 seconds to recover between efforts. MORE efforts needed to be done, I know, but I made up for it in post-weights cardio . . . Resistance session was good. My face started getting flushed after the second alternate set - which is odd, considering usually all colour DRAINS from my face when I'm lifting . . . Post-Weights Cardio was an effort starting out, and my eyes were closed, feeling like I wanted to pass out. Halfway through, I opened my eyes and focused on the quote on the wall ahead of me: "You have to expect things of yourself before you can do them" (Michael Jordon), and from then on, I was pushing it, making my body work and sweat, finishing with my shirt literally drenched . . .

Recovery: Fully recovered after all that sleep!

Body Composition and Look: Searching deep for the positivity.

Other Effects: None.

Other Notes: Learnt a few more things about my body over the last two weeks - not all of it good (it happens when you abuse it too much)! Going to be making a few changes re nutrition and lifestyle to accommodate for it, and hopefully improve my health. It's time the Female Terminator was not only revolutionized, but REMODELED as well!