"People fear what they don't understand. They're afraid, and they're jealous. Afraid because they're slowly realizing that everything that they imagined is not how they imagined it to be, and they're jealous because everything they've ever wanted, you have." - Adriel Cellardoor
I failed to see the red flags or realize until AFTER the fact, in the wake of your obsessive destruction, that you were no "friend" and never had been, but hollow soul, who for whatever reason was jealous of me, how I lived my life, and those freesoul energy attracted, my sanity especially.
You thought what you told me would keep me from my sanity? Though conflicted from recent revelations, I chose to follow my heart and do what makes me happy as I did before, having known things then too and put them aside, because too much has happened to be deterred from staying true to my soul and enjoying any time that I was given.
Your first mistake was thinking I was like most and not what I said I was, even though you should have known better. Your second was that I would easily believe rumors of another, when I of all people know how false they can be. Your third was not understanding how much I have changed since last year's deaths, fully embracing the darkness of my demons keeping me going.
Do not tell me what I should and should not do with my life. Do not expect me to stay away from someone because you "disapprove". Do not think for one second that I will allow anyone to control or cage me again. I belong to no one and live on my own terms. I do what I want for no reason other than such, recognizing though that my loyalty often comes at expense of my wellbeing, and I need to take better care of myself. Which is why I will no longer sacrifice for any but my sanity, those moments of happiness I am given what has been my only peace.
In rage triggered by me ignoring your "let it go", unable to stand another with the happiness you have so long coveted, your wicked truth was revealed, and with hateful lies you tore my sanity away, hurting another precious soul in the process. How DARE you ever claim love for those whose trust you have so hideously abused! Mindboggled.
Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee


