MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY
Sometimes it takes drastic measures for us to become AWARE of our soul, to ACKNOWLEDGE it, the dreams and desires hidden there, away from not just the world but ourselves because we were not yet ready to accept them. It takes someone special, the most extreme of love and loss, to bring those dreams and desires to the surface, to cause us to turn and look INSIDE ourselves to see what else we keep locked away in the dark. It takes time and it is not easy, looking into your own soul, even if you know how dark it is, despite the light you can radiate in certain presence.
Those drastic measures may have rendered your soul in half, so invested was it, even if you at first did not know why, because for the first time someone else UNDERSTOOD you, SAW you, for who you truly ARE, not accepting that what the world saw was the reality. Someone was there for you, encouraging you, BELIEVING in you, parts of you that had lain dead a lifetime suddenly brimming with hope and the gentle spark of life. You experienced immeasurable joy, eyes bright and faith a guiding light, believing in the beautiful promises sent through time and space, and for the first time, allowed yourself to dream such a dream.
And then suddenly the world went dark and the dream came crashing down in darkness, leaving you lost and confused and full of despair so deep it ached in the deepest depths of your soul, and you cried inside, the tears a seeming never-ending avalanche that threatened to consume you, while outside you smiled and everyone thought your life was so charmed, the rare few who you had let glimpse your soul seeing the torture you lived in, the broken mess, and watched you almost plunge from life itself. In that dark you awakened ANOTHER part of your soul, where you made the truth transparent so that not even you could deny what it was, facing yourself head on as you grasped the full reality of the potential that could become.
From the dark rose a soul that had awakened and EMBRACED both the light and the dark nature of the beauty and the beast. From it stepped forth a WARRIOR determined never to let themselves be vulnerable again to such destruction, albeit more open in their soul than they had ever been, thanks to the touching of that other soul on theirs. It was a soul tempered by more than life itself, for the ultimate experience of the giving of one’s soul into the keeping of another, allowing themselves to fully trust one besides themselves, took far greater courage than would ever be known, and in the aftermath, not a risk that soul was ever willing or intended to take again.
But in the ashes of the dream you thought burnt forever, there must have been something left BEHIND, hidden away from even you, a desire that had been awakened from dormant sleep, and even in such despair still clung to the minute threads of hope that even just being alive it might somehow survive, although not yet sure why, since that soul had finally found in it the ability to let GO of the dream that it once held so precious and dear, knowing that sometimes dreams are not meant to be anything more, arguing against it because it believes no dream in our heart is given withOUT reason, but not understanding how it could possibly be fulfilled in the wake of all that had transpired.
And then the unexpected discovery of life in this soul, a light spread from the inside out, taking it unawares, but creating such an AWARENESS, identifying with surprise the cause and seeing the effect, not wanting to believe that such a thing was still possible, or even for it, but coming slowly to understand the seasons that had passed had only prepared it for what was to come. New life came with hope reignited in the soul that was more aware than ever of itself and of others, fully embracing the complexity and wonder, a heart thought forever closed slowly unfurling like a rosebud in the winter frost, to welcome the light of the dawn seeking to warm it.
A soul truly AWAKENED through love, loss, and pain, understanding where it has been, where it is now, and where it must go, no longer fighting the dreams and desires tugged from the depths where they hid for so long, allowing light to filter through the darkness and slowly push it away, accepting and embracing the change, knowing that anything is possible for the one who believes and holds tight to their faith, completely coming “into its own” as it BLOSSOMS before the world, is a wonderful and beautiful thing, one of life's miracles.
© 2012 Rosie Chee
