MOTIVATIONAL OF THE DAY
We are all human. We all have periods in our lives when we go backwards instead of forward - whether deliberate or not.
There are NO excuses for it, and I hold myself completely responsible, but the last eight weeks have been such a period for me, [even as it hasn’t at the same time]. A day of “bad” would have been ok. Three days even, would have been ok. A week would have been pushing it, but still within reasonable limits of minimal damage. But eight weeks - a LOT of damage can be and WAS done in eight weeks, COMPOUNDING on the damage ALREADY done. And every day, not just afterwards, but DURING, I desperately beat myself up inside, my mind screaming “NO!” as my body acted, berating and hating myself, wondering what in hell I was doing, because I knew BETTER, even as I deliberately went AGAINST that, [slowly destroying myself for something I thought I had ALREADY dealt with].
However, even when we make decisions we know are NOT conducive for us, we DO learn through them. We learn what we DON’T want. We realize more than ever just how we HATE feeling, affirming our goals and purpose, creating an even STRONGER desire to be and STAY on the RIGHT path.
We make the choice. Every day we decide what we will do. Sometimes we make the wrong choices. Sometimes we do it even though we KNOW they are wrong. Sometimes we can “get away” with it, but eventually we pay the PRICE. Hopefully in paying that price we LEARN, GROWING from the experience. After all, we canNOT take back what was done - only let it go and move on, FORWARD, thankful that it is NEVER too late to UNdo any damage done [and quickly, once we set our minds to discipline ourselves to the task].
It’s time to STOP going backwards. It’s time to say “NO MORE!” and take back CONTROL. It’s time to move FORWARD again! And this time to NEVER STOP MOVING FORWARD!
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