August 6, 2018


Sometimes it takes a kick in the gut to realize the truth that you should have seen a long time ago. But maybe you just wanted to believe in those you would have (and did) anything and everything for, even when the past had begun indicating difference. Maybe being forced to leave what you might not have yet otherwise because of your loyalty was necessary. Everything for a reason, even if hindsight revelation. You felt the sting of betrayal there before, once, twice, and now an undeniable third. It is time to accept that while the start may have been completely different, time has changed things, something once good and healthy evolved into something toxic to your wellbeing. So many emotions right now, but they will calm eventually, and you know that you have to let go irrespective of anything and everything. Not all beginnings are meant to be forever, and sometimes "forever" is only as long as it lasts. Time and again you have known this, time and again you have grown even more, managed to become even more open and soft, your heart "love" despite cruelty. So now, give yourself permission to feel it all, let it sweep through you and then release it, let it go, let it move and flow away from you, so that when you stir again it will be with a grateful smile for the blessings that light true through the gutwrenching pain.

Words: © 2018 Rosie Chee​